S.T.R.E.S.S
A2 is spproaching. =( all the best to SN10R and An10s.
July 23, 2010
July 18, 2010
I am ME.
I am who i am, since n years ago.
I'm still me, that will forget everything, (including how to talk!) when i'm nervous.
Case 1: When i was still working in popular, sunway, i used to get water refill in the baby room near the toilet. everyone working there refilled their bottle this way. so, one day, i went to the baby room and do the 'usual stuff'. suddenly the some *%$#@ manager went in. and it went this way:
Her: hey, are you our customer? or a worker over here??
me: ( i was wearing uniform) erm, worker.
her: which store are u from?? do u know that this is only for customers???!! *angry look*
me: *gulp* urm.. errr... ( too nervous that i cant speak properly) popular.
her: huh??
me: POPULAR!!
her: do you know that ur office have your own water dispenser? which part of popular you're working? i have to make a report to your boss.
me: (omfg) erm... erm... *keep quiet*
her: do u understand what im talking about?
the man beside her ask me the question again in chinese. ( i think he thought i dun understand english.)
me: erm... *continue to act like a fool, cuz i dun wan my supervisor to know bout this*
her: ok, fine. this time i give u a chance. don't let me see you here again.
me: *ran away*
well, so u can see, i can't even talk or think when i'm nervous. =( i wish i can change this bad habit soon. >.<
I'm still me, the one who afraid of being alone in dark.
Case 2: Last few weeks, i went back hostel around 5am, after fifa final mar... xP ymun was sleeping that time. i wanted to go toilet but i dare not since i was alone and the toilet is quite eerie at night. so i lied on the bed to force myself to sleep. after around half an hour i think, i saw ymun woke up to go toilet.. haha. thank god, so i followed her to toilet... and she laughed at me. xP end of story. lol
I'm still me, the one who afraid of bugs, especially COCKROACHES.
Case3: This happened last year. That morning, i was late to work. but my dad insist to fetch me to breakfast before work. so we went this "SUNWAY RESTAURANT" to have our breakfast. when i was eating one of my favourite food, pan mee, i saw something dark dropped. i thought it's just a paper or something, so i didn't pay much attention to it. after that, i felt something is on my hand, crawling. i can remember the feeling, of 6 tiny little legs, stepping on my hand. *EEEWWWWW...* when i looked down to my hand, i saw a big fat f-king cockroach, i shouted with all my strength and 'jump' to my dad's leg since he sat beside me. everyone was shocked and peoples in the restaurant all turned to me with a big question mark on their face. can you imagine how scary is that???!!! how disgusting is that?? and soon, i started crying cuz i was too shocked. and my whole body was shaking like people who had drug. so we leaved the restaurant. well, to be honest, i cursed the restaurant to 'zap lap' soon. with this kind of environment, you better close your restaurant and sleep at home. i HATE you!!
I'm still me, the one that will be over-stress so easily.
Case4: Last week, i had my test. Well, i don't know a single thing about my applied maths and further applied maths since its mostly PHYSICS. i hate physics since form 4. why do physics still following me, although i dropped physics beginning of the year. so, i ter-paksa study applied maths for the whole day since 3-11!! but there's this example mr ngeoh gave, i solved for hours, but i still can't understand why the answer is Vcos@ not Vsin@. i asked my classmate, penny for few times, but i still dont understand. i got so damn frustrated and stress that i cried in front of my friends. i knew i gave them a shock but still, i'm really grateful to have them. =)
I'm still me, the one that can't bear to leave my friends.
Case5: 3 months left, i'm facing A2, the most important test in a-levels. Meanwhile, i'm going to graduate right after this test. this means that all of us, hostelmates and SN10R will be apart. and might not be able to meet each other after this cuz everyone is from different places like johor, kedah, taiping, sabah, kl and more. some might also further their studies overseas. so, mr. time, please crawl, don't fly. i'll really MISS my friends if we graduates. i'll really cant get use to it, not waking up every morning in the hostel, having dinner together, having breakfast, even shower together.
I'm still me, the timid one.
Case6: someone told me that if i tell him, i'll get him. someone said that all i have to do is to tell the truth. yeah, i thought about it many days and nights, thought about the ways i could tell this someone. but, in the end, i end up with nothing. i just too shy and timid to tell this someone. just like what i did in the past. but, i'll try to change myself. =) soon.
I'm still me, the lost one.
Case7: til now, i still can't figure out what is my ambition. i wanted to be a actuarist cuz i like maths. but now, i knew about mechanics, i don't think i can make it if i study actuarial. so, it's time for me to figure out which other thing that i can study and won't regret of. hmm...?? finance? econ? admins? marketing? it? business? who have a better one? i need help..
Well, in conclusion, i'm still me, the same old me, who loved to be what she is now. no matter where she is, whom she be with, she'll be happy. =)
P.S.: sorry for the LATE of update. so i post a longer blog this time. xP
love to be at home. =)
I'm still me, that will forget everything, (including how to talk!) when i'm nervous.
Case 1: When i was still working in popular, sunway, i used to get water refill in the baby room near the toilet. everyone working there refilled their bottle this way. so, one day, i went to the baby room and do the 'usual stuff'. suddenly the some *%$#@ manager went in. and it went this way:
Her: hey, are you our customer? or a worker over here??
me: ( i was wearing uniform) erm, worker.
her: which store are u from?? do u know that this is only for customers???!! *angry look*
me: *gulp* urm.. errr... ( too nervous that i cant speak properly) popular.
her: huh??
me: POPULAR!!
her: do you know that ur office have your own water dispenser? which part of popular you're working? i have to make a report to your boss.
me: (omfg) erm... erm... *keep quiet*
her: do u understand what im talking about?
the man beside her ask me the question again in chinese. ( i think he thought i dun understand english.)
me: erm... *continue to act like a fool, cuz i dun wan my supervisor to know bout this*
her: ok, fine. this time i give u a chance. don't let me see you here again.
me: *ran away*
well, so u can see, i can't even talk or think when i'm nervous. =( i wish i can change this bad habit soon. >.<
I'm still me, the one who afraid of being alone in dark.
Case 2: Last few weeks, i went back hostel around 5am, after fifa final mar... xP ymun was sleeping that time. i wanted to go toilet but i dare not since i was alone and the toilet is quite eerie at night. so i lied on the bed to force myself to sleep. after around half an hour i think, i saw ymun woke up to go toilet.. haha. thank god, so i followed her to toilet... and she laughed at me. xP end of story. lol
I'm still me, the one who afraid of bugs, especially COCKROACHES.
Case3: This happened last year. That morning, i was late to work. but my dad insist to fetch me to breakfast before work. so we went this "SUNWAY RESTAURANT" to have our breakfast. when i was eating one of my favourite food, pan mee, i saw something dark dropped. i thought it's just a paper or something, so i didn't pay much attention to it. after that, i felt something is on my hand, crawling. i can remember the feeling, of 6 tiny little legs, stepping on my hand. *EEEWWWWW...* when i looked down to my hand, i saw a big fat f-king cockroach, i shouted with all my strength and 'jump' to my dad's leg since he sat beside me. everyone was shocked and peoples in the restaurant all turned to me with a big question mark on their face. can you imagine how scary is that???!!! how disgusting is that?? and soon, i started crying cuz i was too shocked. and my whole body was shaking like people who had drug. so we leaved the restaurant. well, to be honest, i cursed the restaurant to 'zap lap' soon. with this kind of environment, you better close your restaurant and sleep at home. i HATE you!!
I'm still me, the one that will be over-stress so easily.
Case4: Last week, i had my test. Well, i don't know a single thing about my applied maths and further applied maths since its mostly PHYSICS. i hate physics since form 4. why do physics still following me, although i dropped physics beginning of the year. so, i ter-paksa study applied maths for the whole day since 3-11!! but there's this example mr ngeoh gave, i solved for hours, but i still can't understand why the answer is Vcos@ not Vsin@. i asked my classmate, penny for few times, but i still dont understand. i got so damn frustrated and stress that i cried in front of my friends. i knew i gave them a shock but still, i'm really grateful to have them. =)
I'm still me, the one that can't bear to leave my friends.
Case5: 3 months left, i'm facing A2, the most important test in a-levels. Meanwhile, i'm going to graduate right after this test. this means that all of us, hostelmates and SN10R will be apart. and might not be able to meet each other after this cuz everyone is from different places like johor, kedah, taiping, sabah, kl and more. some might also further their studies overseas. so, mr. time, please crawl, don't fly. i'll really MISS my friends if we graduates. i'll really cant get use to it, not waking up every morning in the hostel, having dinner together, having breakfast, even shower together.
I'm still me, the timid one.
Case6: someone told me that if i tell him, i'll get him. someone said that all i have to do is to tell the truth. yeah, i thought about it many days and nights, thought about the ways i could tell this someone. but, in the end, i end up with nothing. i just too shy and timid to tell this someone. just like what i did in the past. but, i'll try to change myself. =) soon.
I'm still me, the lost one.
Case7: til now, i still can't figure out what is my ambition. i wanted to be a actuarist cuz i like maths. but now, i knew about mechanics, i don't think i can make it if i study actuarial. so, it's time for me to figure out which other thing that i can study and won't regret of. hmm...?? finance? econ? admins? marketing? it? business? who have a better one? i need help..
Well, in conclusion, i'm still me, the same old me, who loved to be what she is now. no matter where she is, whom she be with, she'll be happy. =)
P.S.: sorry for the LATE of update. so i post a longer blog this time. xP
love to be at home. =)
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