Death

What does death meant to you?

Well, for me, it's a HEAVY word for me. I can't imagine anyone i love, just leave me forever to another place. I know, it's gonna happen some days later. but, still, i really hope that day wouldn't come. At least not that fast.

One of my bestie just informed us that her dad just passed away yesterday morning. Well, i got a shock when i saw she post it in facebook. The moment i saw that post, my breathe stopped for few seconds. The first thing that comes into my mind is: "are she alright?" "does her family needs any help?" "what happen if it's happen to me (touchwood)? will i be as strong as her?" I felt so sorry for her, and may she stay strong. I'll pray for her and her family.

Since i start working for brainet, i realised that every parents actually sacrifice a lot for their child. Since the day they're born, to the day they grew up. They really sacrificed alot of time and money for their child. So, it made me appreciate my parents more. Urm, let me tell i little story here.

Almost 20 years ago, i was born. I grew up with my parent's full love and courage. When i was obedient, i get a little gift from my precious dad. When i was naughty, i "kena rotan" from them. When i got my first "big" exam result (UPSR), i got a sweet hug and kiss from my lovely mum. When i got loss from tuition (primary school), my mum was really really worried that she nearly call the cops. When i got my driving license, it was my family that first to sit my car. When i start working, my dad is the one who sponsor my daily trips and food fare. Yeah, i'm the pampered girl of the family. Over-protection perhaps. But i'm glad to be their daughter cause they loved me; and i loved them too!

So, i know that as time passes, they getting older and weaker. And sooner or later, they might leave me. How can i stand that "forever-separation"? i don't know. i don't even dare to imagine. Few years back, when my grandpa passed away, well, i was in primary school that time, i cried out of my heart. From the bottom of my heart, i still miss him. Whenever i thought of my grandpa and our lives in seremban, my tears will just flow out, even after almost 10 years. So, i don't know what will i be, when my beloved one passed away, especially the one i appreciate the most. I'm sure i'll break into tears, am i able to continue what i'm doing currently for eg, study? i'm not sure. I know, i'm weak. I don't know whether i'll be strong enough to withstand or not.

Well, as the end of the post, i want to mention something that is really important, this whole post, is only a post to my dear bloggy, and it surely won't happen. TOUCHWOOD!!!!

P.S.: i've learnt to appreaciate everyone i love, and tell them i love them, everyday. =)

Him

Thought about someone lately.

Glass

Trust and love is like a glass, once its broken, no matter how hard you try to fix it, it will never be as perfect as before.

Thought of this sentence this evening. well, for me, its true. if you trust someone, then you'll believe in everything they do and tell them anything in your heart. but once that person broken the trust between the two of you, eventhough you still look as close as usual, you wouldn't believe in this person anymore. you wouldn't tell things to this person anymore. (naaahhh, i don't have any friendship or relationship problem, just kinda think of this just now. so wrote it out lo.. )

kaayy, let's just make that as a beginning of this post. now: I FINALLY FINISHED MY 12 DAYS FAIR JOB!!!! happy but back to my boring life for at least a month! In this fair, well, i learnt alot of things and realized some of my weakness, really serious weakness. In the last 3 days of work, Lwin, my so-called "si-fu" left me, by teaching me the way to do some installment for the few thousand educational system. well, he teaches me few times and reminded me few times about it. I ended up making all wrong installment, letting the customers fill in the wrong form. i knew he was really mad that time, so do mrs. ho, my boss's wife, but they didn't blame me, and told me everything will be settle soon. they even asked me not to worry about it. well, i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY guilty about it. =( if they scold me, i might feel better but they just smile at me, telling me everything's alright. they even asked me to work with them next week in midvalley. i told them i'm not sure yet, as i'm afraid of making stupid and careless mistake like i used to do. ='(

yeahh, this is it. end of the fair thing. no more unhappy stuff in my heart after i wrote it out in my dear blog. =) *smile* this is what the use of blog, the one who understands my daily life more than anyone else. i LOVE you!!! kaayyy, this is the end of this post right now. =) will see you all soon.

P.S.: will meet yin dear 2moro, cant wait for it~~

I Am Number Five

Nope, you're wrong, i didn't write the wrong number. Since Alex Pettyfer be number four, i'll be the fifth one then! hahaha. well, i just watched "I AM NUMBER FOUR" in IOI with my mum. Last week when i watch "SANCTUM", i sort of come across with "I AM NUMBER FOUR" trailer. so, i was like, omigosh, i wanna watch this movie!! so, today, i went cinema to watch that. :) well, I'M SO NOT regret about it. i might get a dvd of that movie for myself soon too! well, in this movie, i saw... yeah, cute guys and girls again. == i'm not "uncle-goldfish" or what, but looking at them just so "yang yan". hahahaha. so, the actors and actress are:

~John Smith: Alex Pettyfer

~Henri: Timothy Olyphant

~Number 6: Teressa Palmer

~Sarah: Dianna Agron

~Sam: Callan McAuliffe

~others. (not interested, so will not list here. sorry, if someone wanted to know about them. )

so, yeah, as i said, its a really nice movie. ^^ enjoyed it alot. thanks yin and kayt to recommend me!! and its weird if list down the cast of the movie but not the plot of the story right? erm, the story goes like this: There's 9 of the numbers, or u can call them residents of other planet. and there are some guy that intended to kill them all, one-by-one, numbers-by-numbers. so number 1, 2, and 3 were killed. and number 4, John, is the next one. He got this supernatural gift, which is strength. John and his so-called "father", Henri have to move from place to place to prevent the bad guy finding them. so, in this one particular town (which i forgotten the name of the town, sorry), John met the girl, Sarah, which he loved. So, there was a reason there he wouldn't want to move anymore. and yeah, the bad guy followed his scent, and found him. so, they start fighting and blablabla... in the end, number 4 and number 6 save the town!!! LOL. ^^ the movie is really nice, but the plot i wrote, haha, maybe is NOT that nice, forgive me for my grammar mistakes, kkkayy?? :)

P.S: i found alex pettyfer's facebook!! and he approved me. hahaha, i know it MIGHT BE the fake alex pettyfer, but, i don't care!!! don't let me know the truth.. ahahah..

[The pictures of the cast, i'll be uploading it soon! Stay tune!!]

Signing off,

Ann