习惯， 真可怕

不小心习惯了有你的生活。
也不小心习惯了依赖着你。
更不小心习惯了有你的关心、你的一切。

习惯，真的很难改变。
它，也真的很可怕。
要如何才能习惯一个不习惯？

当时他说我很快就会习惯了，　会习惯没有他的日子。
一个多月了，怎么我还没习惯？

P.S.: To fall in love is awfully simple;

To fall out of love, is simply awful.

It Rained!

Finally, it rained yesterday!!
The haze is still here today, but without the stinky smell!
So.. I guess it's kind of a good news, at least for me :)
I don't have to wear that face mask all the time anymore, weeee!!

The moment it rained, I really felt like dancing in the rain. 

Too bad that I don't have someone to be crazy with me. :( 

And... 

It actually really a "polluted rain", since it contained all those acidic haze thingy. 

So.. 

Let's just dance in my mind. 

Teehee! 

P.S.: Things are getting better now. 

With a busy working life, i have not much spare time to "think-too-much". 

But then, seems like one of my very close friend got sick, and it seems serious. 

God bless her. 

Please be good to her and let her recover soon. 

Please rain!!

The weather nowadays is killing me, killing us.
I felt so suffocating no matter where I go.
And today is even worse, I've been alarmed and woke up by the smell of the haze.
Got so shock when I looked at the window and all I see was haze, even the building right beside my condominium is blurry.
My lungs are yelling for help.
My throat stings.
Everything felt so sick, even just a simple breathing.
God, please rain.
Please let the haze go away asap. =(
We're all gonna be sick soon.

And how can people drive in this kind of weather? 

(And today its worse)

P.S.: Just rain, please. 

Him

I miss you.

Happy Daddy's Day!! ♥

He's my first love. 

He's the only one that loves me more than anything else in the world. 

And he's also the one that will not leave me no matter what happens. 

To my friends, he might look fierce, strict and perhaps, scary.

But to me, he's my super hero, my king. 

Without him, I'm nothing.

He worries about me, and takes good care of me for this 22 years. 

All the scoldings from young til now, I know, it's only for my own good, to guide me to be a better person.

From now on, it will be my turn to take care of you. 

My turn to love you more than anything else in the world;

My turn to not leave no matter what happens. 

And to be your precious princess.  

I love you dad, more than I can say. 

Happy father's day! 

♥

P.S.: Of course, 

I love my mum and brother too! 

Teehee! 

Friends, Are Those Who Shaped You Into A Better Person.

It's been a long night with my all-time favorite animal gang.
Happy? Yes.
Of course, they always know a way to cheer me up.
It's been quite a while since I laughed my tears out. :')

Anyway, let's talk about things regarding to the blog title.
Friends, are suppose to be people who shaped you into a better person.
True friends doesn't talk behind you. They talk in-front of you.
Accept it or not, they're teaching you a lesson.
They're shaping you into a better person.
If they doesn't care about you, they won't give a damn and waste all the energy and time to tell you that.
No one is truly, 100% perfect. So do friendship.
Every friendship has their flaws. Some hidden, some not.
Let's take my animal gang for example.
They often ended up quarreling on small matters, debating on some matters that are not significant at all.
But few minutes later, or at most the next day, its like nothing happened anymore.
Perhaps, this is the way they communicate.
Sometimes things may get worse.
But, I know that everything will be alright, soon. It will be, definitely.
After all these years, the animals are not just "friends", to me, they are my second family.
That's why, I'm so hurt and worry when I know that "that" happened.
(I know, I know, Munchy you sure will say I think too much again right? And I'm glad I am thinking-too-much now, but not.. )
I care about every single person in the gang, and without you guys, I won't be the 'me' I am now.
Just like what Feng told me yesterday, me too, I am really really grateful and glad to study in TARC and to meet all of you there. There's no better memories than meeting you guys :')
All of us might be scattered all around the states now and meeting up might not be easy for some of us.
But, we will still meet up, once we have the chance.
Distance is not a problem for us. Teehee! =)

Why am in a confessing mood?
'Cause I felt bad, for being a friend of them.
All I did previously was just to reminiscent about my past, to mourn about it.
I talked to them all my problems, but not asking them whether they have problems or not.
I should have notice that you're not happy, but..
*Sigh* I'm just so sorry.
It will be the last time I apologize to you, i swear.
Because I don't want you to unfriend me. HAHA!
She said one more sorry and she'll unfriend me :(
Anyway, my animals, you know I love each and everyone of you.
And I know all of you will be there for me, for each other.
And thanks for telling me that I am better than I'm thinking.
(I know I am too low self-esteem sometimes)
And to that chicken, thanks for the hug. It means alot to me :')

The animals. :) 

Our Little Genting Trip

The pig, chihuahua, chicken and lion.

Random Outings. 

Tan, Zhu, Abu, Munchy 

( we have nicknames for each other, that no other people besides the gang will call us that ) 

I just love this picture, everyone seems so happy here. 

Although my face is being blocked by Surprise's big fat hand. 

This is just so cute! 

Look at CCY and ah boy and ah tan and everyone! :) 

(by the way, u can click on the picture to zoom in and look how funny and cute they are. ) 

and lastly, our family chart, done by someone who is too free. 

LOL 

P.S.: All that memories, and all those crazy stuff we did together,

that's what makes us a family. 

Laugh together, smile together, and solve problem together. 

By the way, 

my animals, when can we have another animal trip? 

I miss travelling with you guys already. 

:) 

Still.

I still label your name as "Dear" in my phone.
I still have your picture in my purse.
Your handmade flowers are still on my table.
Your picture is still in my cupboard.
I still hug the Santa Bear you gave every night to bed.

I just don't feel like putting them away of my life, like they never exist.
Only God knows when I'm gonna change all these things.
It didn't mean that I couldn't let go, it just simply means that..... I hate to change things. Lazy, perhaps.
By the way, talking about "never exist",
I really don't understand why people start deleting their ex's pictures or "unfriend-ing" them after a break up.
Like they've never exist before.
I don't wish to delete our pictures, your contact and our memory.
It's still one of the precious moment in my life that who knows 10 years later, I'll be looking at the pictures and laughing at myself, wondering why I would be so stupid to be fell in love with this skinnyman at this moment.

To be honest, I still can't imagine the day we meet. How I would react? Will it be awkward? Or will be it just alright? And how about the day I go to B2-7-11? (Guess I shall not go there as often as I used to be now..) And how about the day you start chasing other girl? I don't know how I would react. But I'm sure I can handle it. =)

Like what munchy said, "Shit happens, but life's goes on." 

P.S. : I'm sick of spending most of my nights this way (picture above),

I'm gonna change it. 

Yes. 

I am gonna change it. 

I will change it. 

Nightmares, please stop following me now. 

And Mr. Brain, please be good to me.

Recover

I'm not sad, but I'm not happy either.
I know you will be disappointed at me when I post this.
But, I just can't control myself. 
Sorry, Munchy.

It's better to fake a smile, than to receive all those look on people.
I'll just let them think that I'm alright.
And they don't have to worry about me.

It really warm my heart, that all my friends are here.
I listened to aloooot of words that they told me, that made me touched til I cry.
Even some of them will just come in and crack some joke to me, just to cheer my day.
You know who you are.
All of you, you know I love you guys so much. =)

P.S.: Just so you know, I'm on the RECOVERY phase now.

And that, I'm really glad that that person is Mr. C. 

Guess no one will be better than that. 

For being such a considerate... friend.  

Thanks alot, you know. 

Mr. C, Thank you!

It's been a year and a half since we've been together. 

Didn't thought that it will be the end of us.

But, we're back to friends now. 

It was really really torturing before this, as all i did was just cry, cry and CRY. 

So, it's kind of a relief for me, that it finally came to an end now. 

And yeah, I finally could accept the truth. 

To you: 

You have been a really good guy, u know. 

Yea, you hurt me, but no, i do not hate you like you said i should. 

In fact, I really glad that you're here in my life. 

I learnt a lot from you. 

And if I'm given a chance to choose again, 

I will still walk back the same way, and get together we you and maybe get hurt again. 

Some memories, are meant to be reminiscent, not to be forgotten. 

I love all my memories with you. 

I still remember how we got together, how you confessed to me, how we got awkward when we first got together, how we used to avoid the gang and hide their the playground to chat, how good is it to have you by my side, how good is it to have you to share everything with, how good is it to travel with you, etc. 

It's all part of my life, and I really glad I been through it with you. 

And I'm glad we'll still be friends after this. 

I know I'm too dependent on you since we've been together. 

I know I should really change this habit. 

I know it's not good to still text you or call you after we broke up. 

But I just can't control myself. 

And I'm glad you still chat with me and be friend with me. 

Don't worry, I won't think too much about getting back together. 

I know for you, it's not that easy anymore. 

Habit, is really a bad thing. 

It's my habit to think about you every moments, it's my habit to text you all the time. 

To be honest, it's hard to change these habits. 

I still think about you all the time, I still wanted to text you all the time. 

It's hard, I know. 

But please don't hate me. 

I will try my best to change these habits. 

I will tell myself that I'm not your girl anymore. 

I will get through it sooner or later. 

I will be fine. 

I still will cry once in a while when I thought of you.

I still will miss you. 

But I believe as time goes by, I'll be alright. :) 

I will be strong and who knows I will find a Caucasian for my next coming boyfriend. 

Haha! 

Thank you, Mr. C! 

P.S.: I really hope all of my friends see this post, 

so none of them will ask me about the breakup. 

It's really awkward and sad you know, 

to keep on repeat the same thing to people,

that you've break up. 

So, I really appreciate it, if you guys just not ask me about it. 

What Should I Do?

Can someone please teach me what to do?
I don't wanna be a crybaby everyday.
I don't wanna let go, but I don't wanna continue this way either.
Someone please come slap me and teach me what to do.
Helpless.