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Don't deny!! I know you all are stalking me yo!!
Hehe. I love you all. Love me also yo!
All the best everyone :DDDDDDDDDDDD
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


Because hacking people's facebook and twitter is just too mainstream!
:DDD

Bare with my lameness Bare with me Just Bare with me
HEHEHEHEEE

Hello, Working Life. Hello, Adulthood.

Accepted a job offer today and I was feeling happy and sad at the same time.
Happy, because I can finally end all these endless interviews.
And sad, because I'm gonna officially say bye-bye to my teenage years.

Stepping into adulthood, officially.
*sigh*
New job, please be good to me.
Goodbye, my stress-free-super-long "semester break".

P.S.: Sunk my teeth a little too deep into Fated drama.

Jang Hyuk, OMG. Damn OMG. (Haha)

Btw, getting lazier to type long blog. 

:(

输了

他说：“有梦想，你就赢过很多人了。”

Passion, Oh Passion!

Dear Passion, where have you been?
From young, I've always been a person who was lack of passion.
I enrolled to the university because it's cheap and near my house.
I scored to get first class.
I got first class to transfer my loan to scholarship.
I studied to get graduate.

So now, I'm lost. \I didnt't know what kind of job suit me, nor i have interest in finance work.
I'm lost in a middle of the ocean, not knowing or not having anything to grasp.
I don't know what to do with my life anymore.
I tried looking for job, but I don't even know what kind of job that I'm looking for, or what I want.
I don't have any solutions to my problem, after so many thoughtful nights.

I went working at the job fair few days back, talked to a HR recruiter.
She said, you have to do whatever that you enjoy doing, then you won't suffer so much.
She also a finance degree holder, but ended up in HR department, because she wasn't sure what she want to do, just like me.
So I thought of HR, Marketing, Audit, etc. But I don't know which suits me more.
I wonder whether I can just go some place near the beach and be a diver, or be a kindergarten teacher.

Since after form5, I've always had this huge admire on people who has dreams, or know what they want to do in their life later on. Some friends, they are so into entrepreneurship since young, some in law, some in doctorate, etc. And me? I didn't have any. I do enjoy alot everytime i work for fair event jobs, but takkan i take that as my full time job.

Someone please hit me hard of my face or my head.

P.S.: Oh Passion, where the hell are you?

The Waits

They said 30% of our life spent on sleeping. So, let's say that we'll live to the age of 90, 30 years of it was used to sleep. Sound depressing, huh?

Just had a little thought to myself earlier just now. The remaining 50%-70% of our life is spent waiting. When we are young, we wait to grow older. 

When we grow older, we wait to be enrolled into schools (primary, secondary, tertiary).

When we finish our studies, we wait to get our first permanent job in life. 

When we got our first job, we wait to get our very first salary. 

When we got salaries, we wait to accomplish life dreams and goals. 

When we got enough money, we wait to get our other half. 

When we got our other half, we wait to get marry. 

When we got married, we wait for the arrival of our kid(s). 

When we have kids, we wait for them to grow up. 

When the kids grow up, we wait for them to get good work and other half and grandkids. 

When they got married and have a good life, we wait for the time to die. 

(Even when we load YouTube, we wait. lol)

Wait, wait, and wait. 

Some people's waits are longer than others. Some even have infinite waits along the way. 

Some days are worth waiting, and some doesn't. 

But no matter how long you spent on waiting, you'll achieve what you want, it's just a matter of time. 

I guess, there's no use crying over the time spent on waiting. Why not enjoy the moment of waits? 

P.S.: People starts to lose the meaning of life, 

when they started to care about how much they earned. 

Amount you earned ≠ Amount of happiness you owned

Care about how happy are you, people! :)

FANTABULOUS News

Oh, I forgotten to update a super duper extreme good news!
I won a pair of tickets to the rockzone of CNBLUE CAN'T STOP MALAYSIA TOUR!!
I can finally see CNBlue in flesh tomorrow night!!!
I can finally see them without a screen in between us!!!!
I can finally dance and sing with them live!!!!!
I can finally breathe the same air with them!!!!!!
And with the rockzone tickets, they're just right infront of me!!!!
I can finally meet Yong Hwa.
I can finally meet Minhyuk.
I can finally meet Jungshin.
I can finally meet Jonghyun.
My goodness, all of these, feels so surreal.
Oh God, please don't tell me tomorrow when I wake up, it's only a dream again for me.
IMSOEXCITEDTHATICOULDDOANYTHINGRIGHTNOW.icouldlickyourfeet.nahimjustjoking.

It'll be my very first concert that I attend. And I'm glad that CNBlue be my first. :)
Oh, tomorrow weather, please don't be too sunny, and please don't rain!

I'll see you tomorrow, Yonghwa! :')

P.S.: I finally got to meet my Leeshin (Yonghwa).

:)

Thanks God, for answering my prayers.

Thanks for granting my wish.

Something off-topic:

Don't you think letters end with "Yours" or "Truly Yours" is romantic?

Truly Yours.

Lucky One

I'm always the lucky one.
Sometimes, something that was not supposed to be mine, miraculously ended up in my hands.
For something I wanted badly, I'll always tried my best to get it. Eventhough it doesn't seems belong to me.
And most of the time, I ended up feeling guilty for getting it.
Friends, love, gifts, and now concert tickets.
"Who am I to get such a wonderful friend, or love, or even gifts?"
Sometimes, sometimes this thought haunts me.

Best Day / Worst Day

Read a novel lately. "Looking for Alaska" by John Green.
There's this mini drinking game of the characters, talking about their best day and worst day of their life.

So I thought, what is my best and worst day of my life?

Frankly speaking, I had a lot of good days and bad days.
But, the best day that I've been through I guess is when I'm with my animal gang in TARC.
Well the best day of my life is just a normal schooling day in TARC. After class, I'd spent the afternoon with the girls chitchatting in the room, wash clothes together, and wait for dinner with all other animals. Then, meeting up the guys at ground floor. Waiting for the slowest Daniel to arrive. Walking to TBR for dinner through the long walkway from hostel to the main road, chitchatting and non-stop laughing. After dinner, we'll continue chatting at ground floor of the girl's hostel. We talked about the greatest inventions on earth, til the lamest topics on earth. Then we walk to TBR again for supper til and continue chat til the morning. If I could describe the animal gang in other words, "talking machine" will best fit the gang! I could talk all-day long without having any pause. Even we're all separated in different ways, we still talk non-stop on every topic once we meet. I guess, those days were the best days of my life. If time machine exist, I guess I would pay everything just to get back to those days.

Worst day?
Bad results, fell down, embarrassing moments, quarrelled with parents, fights with friends, breakups, etc. Nahh, none of them considered as the worst day. Just like Hazel Grace, she saved her 10th level of pain on the day Augustus died. I'm saving my worst day too. And I certainly hope that this day wouldn't come so fast, or never reach me.

Recommendation: 

The other good book from John Green apart from TFIOS. 

(DAMN NICE)

P.S.: I really wanna go to CSMY badly.

:( 

I've put alooot of effort in it.

I've tried alooot of ways.

*sigh* 

Why am I so poor?

Bad Year, Malaysia.

It's a tough year for us. People have been grieving on the loss of the missing plane few months back. A plane that gone no where to be found, people's missing without a legitimate reason. It's hard to imagine that you lose someone important in your life, and it's even harder if someone that is important to you was in the plane. In an article that I read recently, the author mentioned that "time doesn't heal, time numbs." Indeed, it's true.

It's been only 4 months apart and another news with the plane came in, literally crushing each and everyone's heart of the Malaysians. "Malaysian Airline MH17 got shot down, with no survival are yet to be found," says the headline. What a heartbreaking headline wtf. News and rumours were all speculating around fb and twitter news feed. Tbh, those posts were not posts that you can simply click the "like" button and scroll on. Those news, each of them, crushing our hearts again and again. Some people mourned, some people cried, some people got lost of speech. "Someone lossed their important ones today. In fact, a lot of people loss their important ones today", I whispered to myself.

For those who loss someone, from the plane incident or others:
May they be free from danger. 
May they be free from mental suffering. 
May they be free from physical suffering. 
May they be well and happy always. 

P.S.: Make your everyday counts. 

Live with no regret. 

Stepping into Adulthood.

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I'm guessing if blogs could collect dust, the dust over this dead page would be as thick as a 327 page novel.
Time to clean 'em up!

It's been more than a month since I finish my final exam. I know I should have updated my blog long ago, but too must distractions were preventing me from blogging. (Or you could say I'm kinda lazy doing anything lately.)

I've spent some of my time telling myself that I'm no-longer a student, some of my time travelling, some of my time shopping, some of my time meeting friends, some of time reading novels or watching drama series. But most of my time spent wondering, aka staring on the walls doing nothing.

I've done a lot of thinking lately. What work I'm interested in, which company I planned to go for, where I wanna be in few years time, who I wanna be in the future, etc. I don't have an exact answer for all of these until few days back. Well, not answers to all of 'em but at least I get most of them covered.

What's different from all my friends was that I'm planning to look for short-term job, like a year or two before quitting. I wouldn't mind for a stressful or busy job, as long as the pay is high enough. I have, no, I must fulfill my dreams before everything is settled down. By settle down means marriage, or having kids, or even having a job that worth putting effort in getting promote. I want and I will earn enough money for myself to study or backpack in Europe, and get a diver's licence. That's a dream. A must.

It's tough, the path of stepping into adulthood. It's hard to accept the fact that I'm no-longer a student nor a teenager, but an adult now. Instead of depending on family, stepping into adulthood means that our family could depends on us now. Bearing the responsibility in the family is a must for me since I'm the eldest in the family. Mum started to reminds me about me bearing my brother's tuition fee, the car instalment, the house instalment, and tons of fees and charges that are way too heavy on my shoulder right now. It kinda scares me tbh. But I'll overcome it once I start work, I guess. As long as I save enough money, I can still go for my dream after a year or two, AND bear all the responsibilities of the family too. Gosh, I hope my bro could finish his course as soon as possible too! Too bad he just started his degree few months back. :(

As a matter of the fact, apart from those jobs that I applied before my final exam, I haven't even start looking for job! None resumes submitted, excepted for those in career fairs before my final exam. I've been slacking A WHOLE DAMN LOT after my final exam, trying my best to avoid all these job-finding moments as much as I can, trying to enjoy my life as much as possible. I'm sorry mum for keep delaying on you. :( I know I've told your that I'd start looking for job after I'm back from Taiwan, then I delayed it to after I'm back from Malacca, then I further delayed it to after July. Well I guess I have no more excuses for me to slack around as July is just 2 days left. *sigh* Reality sucks. I hate facing all this interview shits.

.

I'm done talking about the work part. So, NEXT. (I know I'm long-winded but please bear with me because I got a lot to say after this 2 months break from my last post.)

What is love? What is marriage? You know it really breaks my heart when I heard so much stories about love and marriage recently. Such a shame that I knew few of these scumbags, aka assholes. What kind of human leaves a family (even with grandkids) to a lady that is even 10 years younger that your own kids?!! And what makes your better than a dog when you keep cheating your ex-wife for money when you already left her?!! Yes, I'm ashamed that I know you and we even held the slightest blood relationship. Where is the uncle that once I thought is a good man?! I guess he's dead now in everyone's heart. You don't deserve to be in the family, please don't expect us to call you or help you or even smile at you anymore. Gosh, just typing over here I could feel my blood level rises above average. If I continue talking about the other part of the story, I guess you'll find me in the hospital fainted. Reason? Fire in heart / Too mad / Type too hard on keyboard / banged head through wall. (Jk)

And you, my dear friend, please don't repeat the same mistakes you've done to her again! You know who you are, and you know how perfect she is to me. I hated when people hurt her, it reminded me of the past when she came crying into my room. I couldn't bear to see my friend cry in front of me, the ache in my heart, I just couldn't bear it. Please don't!

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Urm, so I guess here comes the end of the post for now! :D
Oh btw, #Germany you have one supporter over here!! :) Neuer, I wanna get your signature pleaseeeeee!

Mua love for the 5th year! :)

P.S.: I miss writing.

I miss Lil' Button.

I should've take more pictures and videos of hers.

Now all I could see is only the few pictures of hers in my phone whenever I miss her.

:( 

How are you, lil' girl?

Tick, tock, tick, tock.

People complains. 

Most probably because things don't turns out to be what they expected. 

People's choosy. 

And they complained that they couldn't get a job. 

I don't really get it why most people opt to choose on big company to work. 

Is it because it'll makes you happier? 

Or is it because it'll makes less stress? 

Or is it because it'll makes you richer?

Or is it because it'll makes you less embarrassed when you tell people about your occupation? 

Richer, I guess. 

Less embarrassed, I guess. 

Well, I don't belong to the "most people" group, I guess. 

I just want a job that I can be happy with it. 

I just want a job with lesser stress. 

(By happy, I mean I can work with Caucasians, LOL)

(By lesser stress, I mean I can lower by stress by looking at them, double LOL)

I don't think I'm gonna be very proud to tell everyone that I'm working in a big firm, 

and secretly I felt damn fking stress and unhappy in the bottom of my heart. 

Again, 

I don't want to grow up so fast. 

I don't want to start my working life so fast. 

But it seems like I'm the first from my friends to go for countless interviews. 

Stupid lady. 

Why the hell you drop your resumes so early?

==

Two weeks later from today, 

I'll be ending my degree life. 

Two weeks. 

Ugh, time flies. 

Too fast, I can't even cope with it. 

I couldn't imagine how it's like to be unemployed, 

and then employed. 

And then there goes my whole life. 

Work, sleep, work, sleep, work. 

I wonder whether I could even have time for my dreams. 

Backpacking alone, to all the corners of the world. 

Is it even possible? 

I doubt it. 

Work. 

Adult. 

Life. 

Money. 

"Terrifying phrases," I would say. 

It scares me. 

Tick, tock, tick, tock. 

Please, time, please stop. 

Please stop ticking, that sound irritates me. 

I need some time to prepare my heart from accepting the fact that I'm no longer a kid, 

I'm no longer the Jane that are waiting for Peter Pan. 

I grew up. 

Neverland have left me, long time ago. 

Ugh. 

So much in my mind.
So worry. 

So curious. 

"SIGH"

P.S. : I do believe in fairy tales,

fairies,

Peter Pan.

You can call me naive,

but that wouldn't change me.

I won't be able to become a mature lady,

I guess. 

Kid, 

always.

被喚醒的回憶

我真的以為我忘了。

我也真的以為我放下了。

這幾天是怎麼啦？

:( 

那些夢 是如此的真實。

我差一點給它欺騙了。

為什麼要喚醒我們那點點滴滴的回憶？

「夢神」別讓我再做那樣的夢了！

因為這樣的夢，好想好想就一直在那夢裡生活，不想醒來了。

那天靜贊我，她說我很強那麼快就放下了。她說我看起來最近很開心。沒想到我那麼不中用，一頭才剛被稱贊，一頭就崩潰了。呵呵。:') 沒用的人。

還記得某天朋友們問我，如果他再次進入我的世界我會不會拒絕，我騙她們說我會拒絕。其實，我覺得我會像夢裡一樣毫不猶豫的接受⋯

好想好想回到從前。

唉。

Tidak boleh macam ini!! 

Wake up wake up!!

P.S.: Don't ruin your beautiful Sunday 

because of a dream that wouldn't come true, 

stupid lady! 

Not Another "Joann"

I have a common name. A very common one.
Except that in between my "Jo" and "Ann", there are a space.
But it sounds the same as Joann or Joanne or Joan or ...
Whenever I introduce myself to a new friend, for sure I'll get a reply like this:
"Hey. you're the second/third/fourth Joann I knew"
"Hey, you have the same name as me!!"
"Just look at my phone contact list, there are plenty of Joann in it that I have to edit the location I met the Joann in the name part."
"Wow, you're name is very easy to remember."
And the list go on.

Sometimes, I'm really curious about where I stand in my friends' heart.
You have so much "Joann" friends, but when you heard the name of "Joann", will I be the first one comes into your mind? Or I'm just another "Joann" to you?
I'm curious.

That's why I always have different nicknames with different gangs of close friends.
I don't want to be "Just-Another-Joann" to my close friends.
Since young, I have plenty of nicknames and my friends have been calling me with them since then.
ZhuZhu, Ah Jon, Gold Chicken, Pig, etc. 
I want to be rather special than normal, at least to my friends.
Not  "Just-Another-Joann".
Because I'm special; Everyone's special.
=)

I love this!

You can see how common is my name, 

I googled "Joann" and I got tons of pictures, accessories, etc.

P.S.: Yes, Jo Ann is in my full name. 

Not my English name. 

L.A.N.G.K.A.W.I.

3D2N trip in langkawi,we took around 1000 pictures!! I couldn't imagine how much SD card and camera we should bring during our Taiwan trip few months later. Ha! 

Let the pictures tell the story: 

(Of course I won't upload all pictures here, some of them are too embarrassing to be post in social media) 

Day 1: 

With le BFF. 

Flight delayed for more than 1 hour. :/ 

Upon boarding 

After MH370 case, I'm kinda afraid of taking plane. :/ 

Our room. And my roommates of the trip. 

Thanks to Chad we got super cheap hotel in Berjaya. :) 

the hotel has a very magnificent view. 

With a private beach, pools, 24 hour shuttle bus and a nice comfortable room. 

And FULL OF CAUCASIANS! 

It kinda felt like we're living in western country cz we're like the only Malaysians over there. 

Hah! Eye-fulling trip. 

Island hoping. 

The seawater in Langkawi isn't that clear and clean. I guess that's why we didn't even swim in the sea. 

But me and le BFF went swimming in the "air tawar" place. 

And the legend stated that people will get babies by swimming in the lake. 

So we were making joke that both of us getting pregnant and the lake is full of sperm and etc. 

lol

Don't you just love life in the sea? 

It's so peaceful. 

But in the some part of the trip, 

I kinda felt left out. 

Maybe because all of them were a pair or a group 

or just me wanna be alone. 

So on the second day, when everyone is napping during late noon, 

I got myself prepared and called the shuttle bus to pick me up. 

Yup, I went out alone. :)

 I went spending some quality alone time in the pool and beachside.

 Swimming alone, sitting alone in the bench, talking with some unknown strangers, 

looking at angmohs (haha), etc. 

I love this life! 

I had an "early-training" on my future alone trip to European countries. Haha! 

I'm really looking forward to it. I really enjoy this I guess. 

Maybe during future trips with friends,

 I could ditch them and go for some time like this too! 

It isn't that lonely when you have some alone time traveling. 

It'll train you to be brave. :) 

The poolside. :) 

I love spending the night with the gang lying on the seat and look upon the sky. 

Full of stars.

 Total quiet environment except for the beach sound.

 Just lying on the bench and enjoying the view.

 So stress-free.

 It's my life goal, 

living in the beachside enjoying stress-free life everyday. 

Simple as that! 

While waiting the shuttle. :)

Weeee!! 

We took alooooooot this kind of pictures. 

But I'll just share this. Heeh! Some too funny to be post. 

With the crazy ones.

My very first drunk trip. :) 

Can't even walk in a straight line and yet we camwhore a lot. 

Doesn't remember very clearly what we does that night. 

Just too much stupid crazy pictures, 

not to mention damn ugly.

And this is our fail CheonSongYi post. 

lol 

In the Aquarium. :)

 while the rest of the gang went back to kl. Four of us spent our time here.

 Having fun with animals. And "Mount Kinabalu". 

Lol 

Start this post with a picture with her. 

So end this post with her picture again :) 

Finally! Finish blogging about my trip :)) 

Til the next post. Adíos! 

Stupid dreams

Sometimes you spent so much time convincing yourself that something has happened and past.

And you yourself have started to believe that you're convinced.

But some stupid dream, it reminds you all about the past. 

Yes, stupid dreams. 

I dreamt about you again. 

Dreams. 

Time Flies

Tomorrow will be the last day of my semester break. Then I'll start my final year final semester in MMU. 

Time flies, so damn fast. 

It felt like I just started my semester break and yet tomorrow is the last day of the break. 

:( 

Semester break is never enough. It is never too long. 

So, I got my results on the day of my getaway to Langkawi. Guess what, the moment I've logged in to the system and with my trembling fingers I keyed in my ID and password. Took several deep breathes before I clicked into the "Achievement" page. The result for this semester means a lot to me, because it decides whether I need to return RM48,000 loan or not. So I prayed to the God, to give me a less than 0.02 drop in my CGPA. 

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Miraculously, I didn't drop my CGPA and I increased it!!! I got a very very good result, in my opinion. 'Cause I f*cked up the last paper, I thought I will fail the paper. (I done the last question that costed me 20marks completely wrong) But ended up still getting an A for it, I guess the lecturer marked really loose or I'm really really lucky, ha! The moment I checked my result and made sure that  didn't see wrongly, I shouted and danced and screamed and hugged and smiled and laughed like a mad person in my friend's room. Thank God, so much so much for blessing me with a good result. I'll maintain it, I promise. I'm so so close to RM48,000 now. Just one last semester!! 

Then, with a happy and light heart, I went traveling to Langkawi. =) Next blog post will be the pictures of my trip. :) 

P.S.: Perfect happiness,

perfect friends,

perfect trip!

Had my first drunk moment in Langkawi.

Near-to-drunk experience, to be precise.

It's fun.

:)  

Before It's Too Late

"MH370 is yet to be found." - 32 hours later.

It's been 32 hours and the missing plane is yet to be found. How can a plane just vanished in the air, just like this? Is the people still alive? Where is the plane? Is it really crashed in the sea? Rumours spread, all over the net. We don't even know which is the real news and which is the fake. Countries like the US, Vietnam, China, etc assisted in the mission of locating the plane. Families are devastated. People all around the world were praying, grabbing remote controls, switching channels for news that reported latest news, non-stop refreshing pages to know the current status of the search. And of course, there are some douchebags who make jokes on the incident. (I guess their life is far too boring that leads them to crave for attention)

People comes and goes. You'll never know which goodbye is the last. You'll never know when is your last goodbye. Make everyday counts. Confess to everyone you love: your parents, siblings, friends, lover, even pets, before it's too late. Leave no regrets around.

Let's just pray, for everyone we love, for everyone we met, and for everyone on the plane.

May I be free from danger, 
May I be free from mental suffering, 
May I be free from physical suffering, 
May I be well and happy always. 

May my parents be free from danger, 
May my parents be free from mental suffering, 
May my parents be free from physical suffering, 
May my parents be well and happy always. 

May my brother be free from danger, 
May my brother be free from mental suffering, 
May my brother be free from physical suffering, 
May my brother be well and happy always. 

May my friends be free from danger, 
May my friends be free from mental suffering, 
May my friends be free from physical suffering, 
May my friends be well and happy always. 

May he be free from danger, 
May he be free from mental suffering, 
May he be free from physical suffering, 
May he be well and happy always. 

May everyone I met be free from danger, 
May everyone I met be free from mental suffering, 
May everyone I met be free from physical suffering, 
May everyone I met be well and happy always. 

May everyone on the plane be free from danger, 
May everyone on the plane be free from mental suffering, 
May everyone on the plane be free from physical suffering, 
May everyone on the plane be well and happy always. 

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu! 

P.S.: Like what they said in HongKong drama,

"no news means good news".

Pray for MH370. 

Hope. 

Day with Button

I always wanted a dog at home. For years I've been asking for it and my mum doesn't allow.

Miraculously, this year, my mum allowed me to rear one!

So I brought her home 2 days back. 

My brother and I spent a lot of time in thinking a name for her. 

Simply because we fell in love with her, even before we meet her face-to-face. 

Big thanks to Chadwick for allowing us to adopt his puppy. :)

So, we named her Button. 

We've been so excited for her arrival. And worry at the same time.

For Button being our very first puppy in the family. 

First day was tough. 

To be honest. 

She was so afraid, in the new surrounding. 

Brought her to vet, and saw her trembling all over. 

Felt so heartsick, by just looking at her feeling so afraid. 

Night time was a nightmare. 

She kept waking up every single hour and whine. 

But I'm more than willing to accompany here in her crate.

Til she fell asleep.

I never felt so committed in my life, FYI. 

I love her, I realized.

Eventhough I just spent a day with her.

Looking at her falling asleep, I couldn't resist but take pictures of her.

We even made a handmade bed and toy for her!

But the first night, we faced pee-poo problem. 

Most probably because she's still don't feel safe in the new environment.

I couldn't remember how many websites I gone through, 

just to learn to let it poop. 

I've even joined several Yahoo Group for new owner of puppies. 

Just to learn and try to be a good owner. 

Vividly I remembered, that this morning when the moment she pooped. 

Everyone was so happy for her that she finally pooped. 

They said a puppy will normally poop for 3-4 times per day. 

And yet, Button hasn't poop once yesterday. 

So, we were really happy for her.

She definitely sleep a lot. 

Play for 30min and sleep for an hour or two. 

Like a baby pig. 

Adorable huh?

=)

This was taken the moment she just woke up. 

I think she loves her handmade toy-toy since she'll bite it whenever she sleep. =)

But the ownership of Button with our family, 

only lasted for 2 days. 

I don't know what I could do to avoid her being send home. 

Except crying. 

I already miss her, eventhough she's still at my house.

Soundly asleep. 

I cried. My heart sank. 

I guess, this is the hardest time I've cried after.... 

watching "Love from the Star". (No choice, Imma cry baby)

Why do I have to send her away after only two days?

My family couldn't take it, I guess. 

They're sick. 

Mum's sick. 

I've tried to argue with them. 

To gain the access control of Button. 

But, overheard my mum vomiting in the washroom.

I have no choice but to send her away. 

Maybe mum's sensitive to her. 

I have no choice. 

I'm sorry, Little Button. 

You know I love you. 

Maybe you'll be happier, when you're back to your mum. 

Maybe you'll forget me within half a day, after you're back to your mum. 

I'll miss you. 

Please faster wake up. and let me play with you for the last half day.

We gonna send her back tomorrow morning. 

I'm sorry Lil Button. 

Thanks for letting me try to be a owner. 

P.S.: I'll miss you.

A lot. 

A lot. 

='( 

The Fault In Our Stars, John Green

I've read the book recently.
It kinda taught be a lot of things by reading the book.
In case if you don't know about the book, it's about the life of a girl who had cancer and it will never heal.
It's a love story of the girl with a boy who was a cancer survivor but his cancer return and eats up his life in the end. It's also a love story among friends and family.
In fact, it's a really really great book!

There are a lot of quotes in the book that I really like and I would like to share it here.

Indeed. 

The world won't grant your wish, they will only take them away.

When Hazel Grace said this, it kinda break my heart.

In fact, the book reveals so much truth about life.

Truth that hurt a lot.

“It's a metaphor, 

see: You put the killing thing right between your teeth, 

but you don't give it the power to do its killing.” 

During Amsterdam. 

I love how John Green wrote and described about Amsterdam. 

Thou I never been there, but it felt like I'm there.

Just by reading.

The power of reading. Ha!

"I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. 

I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

You gave me forever within the numbered days,

and I'm grateful."

*Spoiler alert*

This was mentioned by Hazel during Augustus's funeral.

This is the sentence I spent a lot of time reading it.

The sentence that I fell in love with.

I read and re-read for a dozens times, before continuing to the next part of the story.

It was the part when Augustus told Hazel about his return of cancer.

His last word. 

In letter. 

To Van Houten. 

='( 

"Okay" has officially become one of the most romantic words. 

At least for me. 

And other readers.

I guess the words, the story of the book, will be on my mind for quite a long time.

I'm in love. 

P.S.: John Green,

I'm gonna buy all your books and read all of it!

=) 

Okay.