Growing up.

I'm almost 20 now. the age to start to think and do things in matured way. i'm supposed to think about my future. my life. my work. but, i'm still hanging here, doing nothing. everyone around me started to move towards their dream life, their future. but what am i doing here? nothing. thought about my future alot recently. and guess what, it's only ended up with frustration but not conclusion. should i go for financial maths in utar or other courses in inti taylors or sunway?? i've did some research,but still, i don't know what to decide. hopefully, by this half year, i'll know what to do and where to go. i'm actually really worry about my future now. =(
Oh, and, i attended my relative's wedding dinner yesterday. i always thought of the same thing whenever i attend a wedding function. "will i marry?" i know, it's realy early to think about this matter, but, still, i'm worried. haha, some people would probably think that i think and worry too much here, huh? it's hard to imagine me and a guy holding hands and shouting: "yum seng" with all the family members. haha, it's weird. and yea, blablabla.

i'm happier without you. ♥

雙子座

雙子座的特性

基本上，雙子座人的意志一直都是一體兩面的積極與消極，動與靜、明與暗，相互消長，共榮共存的。通常很多才多藝，也可同時處理很多事情，有些則會表現出明 顯的兩種或多種人格，這種多變的特性，往往令人難以捉摸。他們相當具有靈性、聰明、心智活躍敏銳，喜歡忙碌和追求新的概念及作事的方法，有活力、口才一 流、活力充沛、胸懷大志、人緣很好，並且都有語言天份。對事物的思考很快，改變主意也比一般人快。

由於水星的影響，使雙子座的人通常無法控制自己的思考力，很容易導致精神衰弱。

雙子座有著雙倍於別人的力量、思考力，卻也需要比別人多一倍的時間去恢復。所以，雙子座是一個善良與邪惡，快樂與憂鬱，溫柔與殘暴兼具的複雜星座。

總有一、兩個顯著的優點及特大號的缺點
雙子座的人通常都有一、兩個顯著的優點及一、兩個持大號的缺點。這使得您在讚美或批評雙子座時，都容易流於誇張與情緒化。要得體地描述雙子座人的性情，得花時間與他朝夕相處，才能證據充分，一針見血。

一般人認為雙子座是雙面人，具有雙重性格。這是因為一般人在觀察人的時候，久缺變化觀察角度的能力所致。一個「見人說人話，見鬼說鬼話」的雙子 座，必具有相當強的語言技巧及溝通能力，他同時瞭解人和鬼，卻不能因此論斷他是既人且鬼，或可人可鬼，甚至說他不人不鬼的。他只對存在於宇宙之間的事物， 比常人多一分因好奇而得來的理解力。因此，要瞭解雙子座，您的好奇心與理解力都不能太差。 在俐落中有許多難以分黟的層次
察顏觀色，是雙子座人的看家本領。加上他的口才，他總是很快便能有效掌握住別人的心思，並說服對方。

雙子座人的眉眼和他的手腳一樣俐落，但在俐落中又帶著許多難以分黟的層次；剛中帶柔，細而不 亂。是企劃與管理部門不可多得的人才。而且他的執行能力亦強，只是較不信任別人，寧可獨自接受挑戰。別誤會他是那種喜歡攬功在身的人，他只是欣然接受應得 的標榜罷了。

雙子座的人愛名，但又不願浪得龔名，他喜歡自己成為別人心目中的「實力派」人士。他喜 歡做起事來有聲有色，雖不必一定要標新立異，卻也絕不能不堅持自己的獨特風格。他很高興遠親近鄰知道他是一個和善的、願意合作的，卻不會為了任何人委屈自 己，使自己看起來俗鄙、鄉愿。

求生意志與求勝心旺盛
公開場合或桌底下的鬥爭，雙子座都不甘居下風。只要有必要，明爭暗鬥，他來者不拒。可是，他不認為爭鬥是高級人類所當為，萬一被扯進低級人類的紛爭中，他也絕不會秀才被兵欺；求生意志與求勝心，使雙子座得了不少金牌。而您必須尊重他那些金牌得來不易。

雙子座的人不惜以慘痛的經驗來取得寶貴的教訓。花錢買教訓，也是常有的事。如果他在說服您的時 候，搬出他的親身經驗，而您仍面露疑色或不馴的神情，他必在結論奉送您一句話：「您一聽老人言，吃虧在眼前。到時候怎麼可都不知道，而且死有餘辜哦！」他 不想干涉您的事。但您一旦已找上他訴苦，他勸您，您一聽，他便會嚴厲地為下一個可怕的預言。準不準？那要看您有多不聽話才知道囉。

好玩、好動、好奇，講求共通性

雙子座的人，才情洋溢，並具有強度的感染力。因為他們善於在遊戲的氣氛中，親近您，瓦解您您的武裝，引導您開發自己潛藏的快樂的能力。

好玩、好動、好奇，使雙子座像一枚跳動不休的火焰，時強時弱，卻永不熄滅。他們精力旺 盛，對工作認真，對朋友講情意，對事業野心勃勃。但是他的情人，卻常被他弄得精疲力竭，他的家人也常因他的情緒搞得雞飛狗跳！為什麼呢？雙子座無法忍受一 成不變的關係，固定的事物使他衰老得極快，也使他所愛的對象衰老得極快。

色衰愛弛，這是真的。對雙子座來說，精神就是色。也就是中國人所說的「氣」。毅志力左右了一個人的成敗，他要求自己，也要求別人。不過，並不是很死板；有時候他對自己會鬆一點，對別人嚴一點。

「窮則變，變則通，通則達。」這是孔老夫子說的。卻也正巧是雙子座的處世觀。他們喜歡「會動腦筋」的人。

放開心情人生如戲
曲折、離奇的氛圍中，雙子座的人嗅到愛的情的蹤跡了。他開始推敲，聯想，反覆判斷。他逗弄您，溞您的癢處，不會很快告訴您真正的意思。您得禁得起 他的撩撥，又沈得住氣。直到他表明「來吧，攻擊我」，您才可以真正行動。但別開心，他不會這麼輕易被攻陷，即使蠻想被您攻陷，他也要您陪他「玩」上一段。 您很可能覺得他在折磨您，不如放開心胸，您搞清楚人生如戲，就不會那麼怨他了。

雙子座是最有趣的情人。愛情的遊戲，他百玩不厭，並且花樣層出不窮，您若不能與他一起享受這個類型的愛情氣味，不如趁早打退堂鼓吧。

婚姻？這種被法律保障（也可以說束縳）的情感關係，對雙子座的人而言，實在乏味。但他不是那種從小就抱獨身主義的人，只不過一旦離了婚就很難再婚罷了。

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to past, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

It's been only a day since my last blog. But still, i can't control my urge to blog the next. =)
So, after the work and a day interacting with "the gang", i realised that i'm not that close with them either. DD, as usual, showed their "attitude", Dan seems like mad as us, yeah, again. and Des, showed his attitude again. Why do they have to act this way?? I can't really understand why i can 'tahan' them last time, and now i barely able to 'tahan'. Will it because that i'm not that 'into' their group anymore? I don't know. From this, i'd learnt a lesson that friends are not forever, even those that are really close to us. Maybe after a certain period of not meeting each other, the relationship among all will change, not that close anymore. Friends are important but they are not the MOST important.

Next, this is for this someone, i think i get what you meant. I won't disturb you anymore, and you won't see me anymore after all after this few days. So you don't need to worry about it anymore. And i know how to keep myself away from thinking something unnecessary like you anymore. All i have to do is keep myself from meeting you, taking to you and the most important, is to keep myself busy. And during the 10days of work, i'd really made it, by not thinking about it. =) Jia you!!!

Nothing is forever. Everything changed. From primary, to secondary, and now pre-U, everything changed. From the way we looked, physically, til the way we thinks thing, mentally. Everything. Everyone keep on promising something about the future, but do they really do it? i doubt it. For me, if you can't make it, don't make promises.

By the way, guess where am i now? i'm at miss TAN SU YONG's house. just finished steamboat. Afternoon went redbox sing k. Now on9-ing, waiting to go back to hostel. And 2moro i'm going to genting. yeah, abit excited and abit worry. Wish me a safe trip ya, dear blog~ xD

P.S.: Love everyone! Enjoy life!