Some People Are Meant To Teach You A Lesson.

Went for lunch with colleagues, and guess what, I laughed my tears off. 

It's fun to have colleagues that loves to joke and being crazy as me. 

I really cheer me up a lot, thanks to them. :) 

I'll be alright soon, i can feel it. 

Just as what my umbrella said: "Be honest to yourself."

So, I'm just gonna admit that I'm not fine now, 

but, I know, soon I'll be alright,

since I have so much wonderful friends around me :) 

P.S.: To you,

I won't say that I'm sure I can be back as friend like we used to be,

but.. I'll try.

Sorry for finding you so randomly even now,

I know by sooner or later you gonna think I'm annoying enough

and gonna ignore me soon.

Sorry.

I won't anymore.

And I won't think too much anymore.

The Reply for the Umbrella

Thanks for being my umbrella.

You know how much I love you (all of you). 

The moment when I saw the message on your blog, I cried. 

Too touched. 

(Or maybe my tears shed too easily) 

Thanks a lot, you know. 

For everything. 

The talks, the once in a while's smile, the umbrella, everything. 

It mean a lot to me. 

You mean a lot to me too (of course + those animals laa - in case they see this post)

P.S: "I thought I told you that I'm proud of you, not for anything,

but for you being honest to yourself"

I'll try to be honest to myself from now on.

:)

The Long-Term Rain

I knew I'm not as strong as I think.

I miss him.

I miss those life.

I don't really know what word to describe how I feel now.

I just don't. 

How can I be this weak after all it happened so long already. Stupid me. Idiot me. 

P.S.: I need my rainbow. I hate being in the rain for too long. I hate this current state of me. 

Untitled #2

Tomorrow's the day. His day.
Friends decided to held a small celebration for him.
But.
Should I go?
I know of course you'll said that I should go, that's nothing wrong with it.
But.
I know I should be going but, I just don't feel like wanting to go.
Because I keep on telling myself that I'm happy right now and in fact, I am happy now.
But, I'm afraid that once I meet him,
all the thoughts of me being fine, vanished.
I'm afraid that I'm just not as strong as I thought.
I'm afraid.
I'm a eff-ing timid person, I know.

I know I tell everyone that I'm getting better with it already,
and even I, myself tell me the same thing,
but,
I know,
I'm actually just looking for a way to lie to myself that I'm already got used to it.
I lied, but,
who cares.

So, should I go?
Guess not. 
Or yes?

P.S.: Hope my friends won't read this 'cause I know they'll

be damn disappointed to me.

Hell,

I'm disappointed to myself too.

Dream

What is your dream of you life?
What is your lifetime goal?
Do you achieve 'em?

To myself in 30 years time:
Have you achieve your dream? 
Have you achieve what you want? 
Are you happy?

It's easy to dream and have an lifetime goal.
But is it possible to hit your goal in one day?
For some people, maybe yes, they got their goal.
But for some others, no matter how hard they've tried, they just couldn't get near to their dream.
Is mine even possible?
Can I achieve my lifetime goal in the future?
I certainly hope so.

P.S.: I would lie and say that you're not on my mind.

No matter what I said I'm not over you.

I'd lie, sometimes.

(Do you remember this song? I guess not.)

The.Best.Friends.

It's hard to find a gang of friends that really understand you and be there for you.
And it's even harder to maintain the friendship for years.
Although I can't guarantee that in 20 years time, all of us will still be together, but what I can guarantee is that no one friend can replace you all and that, the memories we kept is one of the most memorable moment I have in my life.
Friendship comes easily, but you need to put down effort to maintain it.
I love ALL of you guys (including those not in the picture, you know who are you).
You guys are not just best friends, but family to me.

P.S.: Thanks Des for borrowing me your phone,

and I'm now back in action in Whatsapp.

Btw, jealous die of XiaXue and Mike, when I stalk about their love story this afternoon at

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2009/12/love-story.html

What a good life she had,

and perhaps, my dream life, with angmoh!

Feeling Good

Strangely, I felt good recently. 

I hope this feeling will last long, even after I meet him and the gang.

*Smile* 

P.S.: Hope they stay sweet together.

*You know who you are, BFF*

Stupid BFF kept bragging about those Caucasians in her company.

Stop making me jealous, OSY.

Caucasian, oh Caucasian, when are you coming to find mehhh?

Random

Those who know me in person, always thought that I'm a happy-go-lucky girl that have no problems and full of positive thinking. There are few people even asked me before that why I 24/7 smiling.

Those who read my blog, will think that I'm a full of negative thoughts and have the think-too-much "disease". That's why most of my blog post were about "slightly" negative.

Hmmm.. I would say that, I'm actually the in-between, where I'm not too happy-go-lucky or too emo. I enjoy writing down my feelings in my blog, when I don't know who I should talk to. After writing the blog, it'll all feel better. It's just like talking to a close friend. Indeed, my blog have be my best listener since few years back!

Urmm, I have nothing much to update about my recent boring life, except that I'm actually enjoying my intern life now, though its gonna end soon. What I'm gonna do for my almost 2 months sem break? Brush up my driving skill perhaps? I don't wanna depends on my family to fetch me out anymore. Or maybe get a high pay part time job. Or maybe go swim everyday. Or maybe go take up a short course. Or maybe.. Just sleep and eat at home for a whole two months. LOL

By the way, I HAVE NOT LEAVE MY HOUSE EXCEPT FOR WORK SINCE... LIKE 2/3 WEEKS AGO!!! I'm growing mushroom soon. Friends, oh friends, where are you?? Can we meet up? *wink*I miss all of my friends. I guess it's time to catch up with them some time later. :)

P.S.: If it's meant to be, it will be.

Stop wasting time on things that doesn't meant to be yours.

Life moves on, no matter how hard the time is.