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April 29, 2013

What an interesting job!

Went to Semenyih (near Broga Hill) to work as a facilitator in a kids adventurous leadership camp. It will be one of the memorable job in my life as I've learn a lot of things there, and have been happy over there. Well, let me tell you what is my job scope and what I feel everyday:

Day 1:
We've been introduced to all other facilitators of the camps and had a briefing on what we gonna do in the first day of camp. We (Josephine, Ryan, Michael and I) went to the Bridge at 7pm sharp, it took us quite some time as the office is in the lobby of a condominium in Damansara. By 11pm, we depart from the office and went to the campside to prepare our stuff. Reach there around 12.30am and start preparing the stuff for the next day and arranging the hall. So, I've got to explore the area around the camp that day. I was so worried and excited about the kids next day as it was my first time being the faci of the camp and to lead so much kids at once. I'm worried about their safety alot as they all are rich people's kids. "what if i lost them?" was all in my mind in day 1. (LOL, now thinking back, I wonder how on earth I can worry about this. so idiotic, because kids are very safe in the compound HAHAHA)

Day 2:
At 7.30am we gathered to have a last preparation on the hall and the equipment. Had our breakfast before the kids come, in the activity hall. As the kids reach the camp, we heard all their excited sound shouting and laughing, even from the activity hall. So after all is settled and Neal's instructed us to get to our group, this is when I met my girls. At the beginning, it was very awkward, as I have to let them know each other and break the ice between them. FYI, I'm always weak at leading a team. So, its been really so damn awkward that I've just asked them to remember everyone's name. TERRIBLE. It's a challenge though, for me to memorize all their names in a short time as most of them are malays (I don't know about you, but I often caught myself can't remember malay's name well as I think all those names are similar, LOL, sorry. Just saying.) So, after asking for a few times, I finally get to remember all their names. Anis, Inayah, Ruby, Bianca, Kimmie, Venaleka, Zoe, Affifah, Maira, Amirah and Phyllis. So, let's proceed to the game part. The first game we played with them is the Game Galore, which consists of station games all around the campside. The kids have to run around the camp, to look for the game station and complete the games within a time limit. I guess, the games were too tough for my girls as they are only 8-9 years old. I think some of the games can even be played with people like my age. == So, next, the kids get to play Watch My Back. It was a really exciting and fun game, as everyone gets to play in the field with WATERGUN. I guess, I could share this game to my club for them to used on next trip. Teehee =) It was a strategy games (something like football, i guess) where each team have to guard their flag to avoid the competitor to take it. While safeguarding the flag, they also have to save themselves and the teammate, as the competitor will shoot your back with a watergun. Those member whose was shot my the opponent by more than 3 times, will be out in the games. Fun, huh? So, along with some small games in the hall and the journalling part, that ends my day with a tired smile. From 7.30am til 2am work, work like a boss!

Day 3:
All of the faci woke up at 6am+. We gathered at 7am to wake the kids and ask them to prepare for the activities later on. The first activities comes in that day was the team run, where all kids were required to run in team around the camp for few rounds. Din, one of the faci lead all the kids to run. While me, to skip th responsibility to run with the team, I volunteered to "jaga" at a specific place with a slope. HAHA. So next game of the day was the Lego Game, where kids have to memorize all the position and color of the lego blocks built by one of the faci. At night, after dinner, Neal gave so much hope to the kids by telling them there's a campfire that night along with story telling session, where all kids have 3 hours to practice on their show to be presented to all of us and the judges. My team chose to sing and dance the song by Taylor Swift, I Knew You Were Trouble. Guess in the future, whenever I listen to this song, it will remind me of them, my kids. =) It's been a rough day for them, as they spent some time arguing with each other what song to sing and how is the dance steps and stuff like that. What worries me the most is the Ruby told me before dinner that she doesn't wants to participate in the presentation as she's afraid to dance or sing in front of everyone. But after dinner, she approached me and told me she's finally decided to sing with the team. Guess the team members sort it out during the team practice. =) When the time of performance come, I can see nervousness in their eyes, they were nervous that time, and yet excited. When they got up to the stage to perform what they've practice, I've got so damn proud of them, that I even shed a tears when they done their performance. It felt like looking at my own children dance and sing in front of the crowd where I'm really proud of them, my kids. So, with this, I end my day with tears and joy in my mind.

Day 4:
It was the last day of the camp. I can see that the kids were all hoping to stay for one more days in the camp as they will miss us faci when they back to their hectic life with full of tuition and classes, I saw these messages left by the kids in the message box that make my heart melts. So, last day, woke up at 6am+ as well and had a team run in the morning like we did in previous day. Then we also arranged a Trust Walk game for the kids, to let them understand the meaning of trust, where two kids are paired up in a team and one of them is blindfolded. The other kid without the blindfold have to lead the one with blindfold up and down the camp, without fully touching their partner and with no sound. so they can either tap or clap to let the other kid knows the directions. We, the faci even build several obstacle for them to climb through to increase the level of difficulties of the game. It was fun though. After that, kids went shower and breakfast. Oops, do I mention that during that 3 days camp, I'm having all meals with the kids in my team in a same table? We had our breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper together, where all of them were chatting with me, about their families and stuff. It was really fun! Next, the kids get to practice and present on stage in the Amazing Symphony game, where even kids without musical knowledge gets to play music with it. The Boom Whacker is a really special toy for kids where it can only be purchase in the US, not Malaysia, and most importantly, it is fun! Once again, seeing my kids on stage and performed, makes me felt like crying. I'm just so proud of them. After putting up everything along with some small games with Neal, kids were preparing to check out and go home. Then, Maira and Inayah came to me and asked me whether they can stay one more day with me or not, because the camp was so fun and cool that they don't wanna go home this fast. That moment, I was like, OMG, I'm going to explode!! Because Maira, with those super innocent look, is always being one of the quiet girls in my team. I've always worried about her, that she doesn't like the camp or even me! Turns out that she doesn't think that way, and even love the camp, and probably me! When their teacher came to asked them to prepare to go back, Inayah came hugging me and said: "Teacher Joann, I'll miss you. Thank you! I love you, can you sign for me in this book?" After forcing all my tears down my throat, I looked at her and tell her that I'll miss her too and signed for her. After that, all the kids in my team came hugged me and ask for my phone number. Awww, i'm so gonna miss them, so damn much! So, after they went back and we packed up and clean the place, we reach the Bridge at around 7pm. And I reach home around 9pm. Finally got to see my family and talk to my dear after all these days, I havent touch my phone for like 4 days full (stupid digi yellow guy, didn't follow me to the camp for that 4 days!).

So, that ended my memorable work trip in Sememyih with the kids. I hope I can meet them one day in my life! And they will still remember me. *crossed fingers* I miss them so much already. I have no pictures of the camp as I didn't bring my phone there. But after my friend send me the picture, I will upload it here, promise! =)

Sorry for the long grandma story! =) I just wanted to remind the future me that how much I enjoyed in life and work!


Since I don't have pic, so..
"ganti" with this cute picture I found in Google first. 

P.S.: Spent like more than 1 hour to write this post. 
Oops, time to study now! 
Finals next week! 
All the best! 


April 23, 2013

Shut Up!

I really don't understand what I did wrong.
When I spend more time with Mr. C, 
1. my friends told me that I didn't meet up with them for a very long time and feels that there's a gap between us.
2. my parents keep nagging at me that I'm not at home all the time.
When I spend more time at home with family, 
1. my friends told me that I didn't meet up with them for a very long time and feels that there's a gap between us.
2. Mr. C complained that I didn't care about him.
When I spend more time with friends, 
1. my parents keep nagging at me that I'm not at home all the time.
2. Mr. C complained that I care my friends more than him.

WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?!! 
I CAN'T TEAR MYSELF INTO THREE PARTS.
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT.

Sometimes it really hurts and irritating when someone tells me that I don't care about them, when I care the most is all those people around me. I hate it when I really care, but people just simply said that "you don't care" words to me. WHAT THE HELL.

People changed, ok? Well, location changed, problems changed, every f*king things changed. Why do I have to live up to your expectations?! Why you guys keep complaining about me?! I'm sure I've contacted you. Everyone have a problem, not everyone can go out as you wish you can. Even we didn't meet face to face, I still keep in touch with you guys. But, seems like all the "keep in touch" things didn't comes to your mind when you complain about me.

I'm not mad at you guys or something. It's just that, 
I'm hurt. 
I'm disappointed. 
Whatever. 



P.S.: Can't believe that I've been posing about  sad posts recently. 
Please, something good, 
PLEASE COME TO ME. 



April 17, 2013

Emo Night

It's been a while since I cried this much. 
It's been an emo night. 
So much things to explain, but when I'm about to explain, I don't know what and how to tell. 
I know it's not all your fault, in fact, I think probably its my fault. 
.
.
.
.
Everything's back to normal now. 
So, I guess we'll try our best to forget this actually happened. Which it's not.
It hurt my heart tho. 



P.S.: Once again, 
I'm fine. 
Just give me a night, 
and the fun normal me will be back! 

April 16, 2013

I'm Falling For You - Chester See



I don't wanna tell you that I long to see your face
I'm scared it my scare you away
and I don't wanna tell you that sometimes I think of you and smile
cause time with you is time enough for now

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be
just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue.
I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside
and all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say

I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you

I'm trying hard to be myself but I always seem to fail
I'm afraid I'm not the guy you know so well
cause every time I'm near you I just seem to lose my head
and spend my time admiring instead.

But I don't know how long I can stick around and be
just another friend time and time again and hold my tongue.
I don't know how long before it breaks me down inside
and all my strength has gone away, and it's too late before I say

I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you

I'm torn between the chance for everything and a price that I can't pay
losing you is something that I'd never chose so I'll just have to wait
but it kills me everyday

I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you
I'm falling for you

I don't wanna tell you sometimes I think of you and smile.

Some songs, are worth hitting the repeat button for a thousand times. 
Chester See, I'm Falling For You. 



April 11, 2013

Life Sucks, Get A Helmet!

Woke up with a damn good mood.
Received something bad.
Ruined all my mood.
I know, it's our fault.
I'm sorry.
So sorry.
Anyway, life sucks.
fml

April 9, 2013

Random Thoughts

I know its kind of impossible, but I do have this TINY little dream for myself in the future.
To be there in front of Eifel Tower, kissing the one that meant the most to me.
*Blush*
Yep, that's a dream.


TINY Dream. 
(In front, not under)

And of course, to be honest, its not my only dream. I hope to travel around the world and know more "angmo-s(white people)". HAHA!! But just so you know, we can't be greedy and have everything. So, from hoping to get one "angmo" as a husband, to now, a friend. You know why. Reality changes thoughts. Oops, please don't tell "someone" about this. 
So, guess I'll end this little dream of mine with this picture. To be honest, I should be studying now as this coming Wednesday is my midterm. But, ended up doing this, and I enjoyed it. =) 

                                                   
Source: We Heart It

P.S.: Hope to be like her one day. 
幸福。


April 7, 2013

Sorry, My Bad

FORGETFUL.
I've always been this kind of person.
This moment you tell me something, the next moment I've forgotten what you've told me.
Good?
Bad?
Some friends said its good, they said then I will not remember stuff that keep me sad.
But, to be honest, its not.
I do remember stuff that are important to me, stuff I need to do, stuff with deadlines. (Because if its really really important, I will jot down in my notes the moment you told me) 
But sometimes, normal chit chatting with friends, I often caught myself forgot what we've previously talked about.
I even forgot friends' name after few months since I met them.
It is serious?
Yes.
GOD.
Could someone just knock my head hard enough to let my memory not be so poor?
=(
I guess if I ask Mr. C what are the things that he hate the most about me, I guess this is it.
I often forget things he told me.
"I thought I've told you just minutes ago?!!!"
"You sure we haven't been to this place together before?! Think again."
"Fine. You said I didn't tell you, then I didn't tell you. Whatever."
I can see his disappointment about me.
Really.
Mr. C already start showing black face to me whenever I forget stuff about us.
He said I didn't care about him. 
It's NOT that I didn't care!
I do care.
I want, I can't, for God sake.
I'm sorry, dear.
I didn't mean it.
Sorry. To my friends, that I forgotten your names.
My bad. 
I'll try my best not to forget everything everyone told me.
Promise.

I wanna be that girl,
not this girl that make your bad days worse. 

P.S.:  I'm not emo.