Dream

Neither your photos nor your voice records were in my current phone. 

No more contacts made since then. 

No more messages, no more calls. 

No more everything. 

It felt like everything never actually happened before, 

and all that I thought happened was just a dream, that never even existed before. 

I know I'm not somebody to you anymore. 

It's just that.. 

Arghh, I don't know how to describe my feeling anymore. 

I got really emotional after I chat with her every time. 

I guess she just reminded me the truth, about.. everything.

P.S.: I'm just being emotional for this one day.

I'll be alright tomorrow.

I'll be alright. 

Am I being forgotten?

Why am I deleted? 

Christmas, Christmas!

Christmas used to be the season that I loved the most since I was a kid. 

But this year.. 

I hope it didn't come so fast, not because I didn't love Christmas anymore, but my appointment with the hospital falls on the next day. 

Should I go for the surgery or not? 

:( 

Stranger

“It’s just so strange. You used to love me, and now you’re a stranger who happens to know all of my secrets.”

--Clementine von Radics

Dear "Stranger":

I'm gonna take action to text you, or call you (if necessary). 

I'm gonna take action to talk to you when we meet. 

Simply not because I'm afraid of losing you as my love, but losing you as my friend. 

It's hard to get someone that understand you so well, I don't wanna lose you and I certainly hope that we could be good friends again.
=)
I know I might not be able to act or talk to you as it used to be now, but please help me. I believe that one day later, we're back to normal, as friends.

P.S.: Thanks her for talking with me whole night.

I'm perfectly fine now.

=) 

Break-Ups

He said: "If I never met her in the first place, this (heartbreak) won't happened to me." 

He said: "This is why I never wanted to have serious relationships."

He said: "By the time I change myself, she'll be with somebody else."

And he said:" She wanna break-up."

She said: "Why do he treat me this way?"

She said: "I'm worry that my text would annoys him."

She said: "I really miss him."

And she said: "He wanna break-up."

Life's goes on. Don't because of one person change your perception on life. 

You'll be alright soon! :) 

Time will pass and the feeling you feel right now, will diminish slowly.

I can do it, then all of you can! Since you guys are more "experienced" than me. =)

Come come, let's meet up and let me give you all a big huge hug! 

P.S.: It's weird though,

as I haven't "recover" from that

and people came talking to me about break-ups.

Telling them all those stuff, it's like i'm repeating to myself

and remind myself to stop thinking too much.

My Awesome Friends, aka Family

I was crying alone in bed yesterday night due to some small stuff that keeps repeating on my mind.

This morning I went out with my favorite gang of friends with "not-so-good" mood. 

I thought the moment I met them I'll break down in front of them.

But instead of breaking down, I'm actually laughing my ass out, dancing and doing crazy stuff with them.

That's why they're my favorite gang! They have the power to "heal" people. 

P.S.: You guys rock!! 

Me gusta!! 

:)

Congratulations, Lovebirds!

Well, I've been "bombed" by a love surprise by my best-est friend tonight. 
During dinner, both of them, hands in hands, told me that they've been together for two months already. 
At the first moment when they told me, I was so shocked that only "太过分了" came into my mind, because they've been lying to me all these while as they wanted to surprise me with the news. 
(And even now I'm still digesting the news)
Haha, all I told them is that they are too outrageous, 太过分了!  
But what I didn't tell them face to face is that, I'm happy for both of you. Sincerely. 
I'm glad you both found each other, stay sweet! :)
Oh, congratulations for graduation my dear! :) best of luck in the working world and get promoted fast ya!

Talked to them about someone that I didn't talk about in a while.
Looking at the lovebird, it surely reminds me a lot about that someone.
But, what's over is over now.
After almost half-a-year, I finally gathered enough courage to tell my mum about it.
Luckily we were in the car when I told her.
Just to be honest, the moment I told mummy, I felt like breaking down. And since we're in the car, I pretended to look out of the window for a moment to calm myself down. :)
I just don't want her to worry about me for nothing.

Anyway, I have not much to update here for now. Oh wait, good luck for the "hen" for the competition tomorrow! :)

P.S.: Please la, my dear friends, stop blindly "match-make" me and someone else.

*face-palm*

Some friends are like brothers, instead of lovers.

It just felt so damn frickin' irritating and weird.

So, stop it! 

I Just Don't Know

I don't know why I still mind about it.

But I do.

*Sigh* 

Why the hell I frickin' let this ruin my mood?! 

Bloody shit. 

Get Your Head Up, Peeps!

I hate people who text, text and text NON-STOP.
I hate people who are literally here, but actually not here.
I hate it when i'm talking, and you looking at your god-damn phone while answering me!

GOSH!
if you face your phone more than facing our beautiful face,
why you care to even "meet up" with us?!
might as well we just chat online.
it's rude you know, you keep tapping your phone while "living people" is talking to you.

I was really really mad at you that I could really throw out all those bad words in my dictionary to you, although my dictionary of bad words is not thick enough to scold people like you.
If you're not one of my closest friend, i guess we won't meet up anymore in the future, unless through phone. Hmph!
So you know now, how much this irritates me.

But i'm glad that we voiced it out to you the next day.
i'm glad that we told you that we're really mad at you.
though my anger not as obvious as that miss umbrella,
but you knew we doesn't like it.
I hope you get it that we telling you all those grandma's theory is for your own good.
We treat you as our brother and care for you,
that's why we don't mind being that bad person who voice it out all to you.
So, if you noticed something really wrong with my attitude, please tell me.
At least I could learn to be a better person from you.
=)

P.S.: Break-up, break-ups everywhere,

it's not a good way to start a month.

Girl, please don't be so stupid to give a guy your everything,

when you're not certain that he's the one.

Don't do it to get his heart back.

Sometimes, it's better to let go than hurting yourself even more.

Be strong, friend!

=)