Bye, 2013!

*Tick tock tick tock*

Time is passing so damn fast. It's almost time to add a full stop of my 2013 life. 

Many things have happened in this year, some are happy and some are not. 

People are starting to set resolutions for their next year, but I haven't think of one yet, shall start jotting down what I want and what i didn't want when I'm free. 

Life's gonna be heck different next year, as I'm gonna move on to the other stage of my life (Old dy, huhu..) 

In 2014, I'm gonna go through my last semester in university. 

In 2014, I'm gonna decide to continue study for master or opt for working life.

In 2014, I'm gonna spend my very first oversea trip with friends. 

In 2014, I'm gonna graduate and probably start a working life. 

OMG, think also scared liao. 

Life's a bitch. We have to get over all the downs in life and move on. 

So, the very first goal that I can think of to as a resolution, is let go and move on. 

Move on, by means is to not feeling sad nor emotional when I come across stuff of that someone. 

I'm gonna try my best, eventhough I have no confidence that I can do it. *determined*

P.S.: Must. Be. Happy.

Think. Less.

Bye, 2013.

Hi, 2014!!

The Hardest Thing - Tyler Ward

A still frames photograph of you and me together
Is all I have of me and you anymore
We were so in love and we thought it'll last forever.
But in the storm we were torn

And I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing in fact to do is live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you
Just turn around, come back
because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you

If I'd only knew the words to say
that would make you turn around (turn around)
I would say those words to you more than a million times.

It's been forever but
that hasn't changed
what you mean to me.

Darling can't you see?

That I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing in fact to do is live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you
Just turn around, come back
because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you

I'm sorry for all i did,
what i said and things i hid
I'm finally over me
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you would never rescue me
You gave me hope to live,
And I need you, yes I need you!

I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing in fact to do is live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away
I'm lost without you, still crazy for you
Just turn around, come back
because your smile is overdue
And I miss, I miss you

P.S.: Thanks Tyler for your effort to email us. =)

Little bo peep! =)

Ideal Christmas

I love Christmas, more than any other festive season (much much much more than CNY).
I personally have a picture of Christmas in mind.
Even-though I love Christmas so so much, I have never been through a ideal Christmas celebration of my own. Pathetically. =(
People in Malaysia doesn't celebrate Christmas the way they did in the Western countries. Not everyone, but most people. =(
What's my ideal Christmas celebration??

Well, a Christmas shopping is a must. I enjoy a lot while shopping for gifts during Christmas.
I love shopping and walking in stores that are full of Christmas deco and songs.
Then, I would prepare some handmade cards for someone I love, friends and family.
On the eve itself, I don't like to spend it outdoor.
I would want my Christmas be indoor, my house or someone else's house.
With a huge Christmas tree and some gifts under it.
Better yet, it's snowing outside the house. (Which is kinda impossible in my country wtf)
Then all of us (families and friends) went squeeze together on the sofa, watching some Christmas movie.
Laughed and cried through the movie together, making jokes on each other.
Countdown for Christmas together and have some wine and chit chatting around.
The next morning, we'll wake up early for the gift exchange session and had some guessing game around the furnace.
We will then go out to shop for some food and stuff to be barbecue at the evening together.
And we'll laugh and talk and laugh and talk for the whole night long.

Isn't that better, compared to people going to clubs dancing their head off without purpose?
Isn't that sort of warm your heart, where you can spend more time with family and friends?
I'm gonna have this kind of Christmas celebration with my future family, I swear.
So, future husband, please take note of this, and prepare my ideal Christmas for me.
Haha! =)

I saw this on Google Image. 

Isn't this cute?? 

Hmm, will this still be in the market in the future?

I wanna get this for my kids. HAHA

If no more in the market in the future,

then I shall purchase it now and keep it for the future. 

*determined*

Muahahahah! 

I know I'm insane, but I'm a woody fans. 

So... =)

P.S.: Thank you for giving me the cute little Woody from Tesco.

I'm really really really happy and excited when someone said that he'll give me.

=) 

I shall hug my little woody to sleep tonight. 

Haha!! 

Note to self.

Appointment for the sur. is set, two months from now.
Don't worry don't worry, it's just a tiny little sur., joann! =)

P.S.: I saw the post, u know.

But most probably is one of your friends who done it.

So.. =( 

When will I be like Bit? 

Congrats to her for that she got what she wished for soooo long.

Deleted my previous few posts. Oops! Posted it when i'm super bad mood. Regretted it. So.. ya.
ignore me.
kthxbye.

Dream Catcher

A conversation of me and my friend earlier this morning:

T: What you doing tomorrow? 

Me: Class and rush assignments *sigh* 

T: I thought you have to go hospital for body check?! 

Me: Oh shit, I forgotten!! Yesh, then I have to skip all my class and go to hospital. 

T: Why your thing I more remember than you??!!  

*Sigh* 

That's me.

Forever forgetting stuff, even if it's my own stuff. I guess I should also go check my brain tomorrow also. =_= 

But, for some stuff, I wonder why the more I would like it to be forgotten, the more clear I could picture those memories. The more I wish to sweep out those memories, the more frequent I was thinking about them. Why can't they slightly have an interchange??! 

Been having nightmares lately, despite of the season that I've been waiting for all year long. Those nightmares and memories that I wouldn't want to remember, kept coming back to me even in my dreams wtf. I love to sleep, and now you made me kinda afraid to fall asleep. 

So, I bought this: Dream Catcher. Nope, I didn't know this from the Hong Kong drama. But from my umbrella Munchy. According to the myth, it will kinda extract all bad dreams away from you and leave only good dreams. So hopefully I'll have a good night sleep tonight! :) 

P.S: Was not in the mood lately. 

Smiling seems to get harder day by day. 

But, I'll be okay. I'll seriously be okay. 

I believe that the more I tell myself that, I'll be alright.

 Argh, god of positivity, please come back to meh!

有时候

有时候会很想发简讯给你，告诉你我还想你。不过… :( 

Careless

I know I repeated this more than once, but, I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO CARELESS!
I seriously can go shoot myself to death because of my carelessness.
Forget this and forget that.
*slap*
Joann ah Joann, why are you so freaking careless??!!
At first, you accidentally burnt your thumb by holding burning hot plates.
Then, you again accidentally cut your fingers while washing the knife.
And what now? Leaving something SO DAMN IMPORTANT in the class???!!
You can really go bang wall now.
God, please let it still be in the class, I'll collect it tomorrow morning. Please please please pleeeeease!

Gahh, so no mood to do anything now. Spanish test tomorrow, how am I gonna study?? I havent even start studying!! AHHHHHH, why are you lost???!

P.S.: God, please be good to me!

Please let me find back the stuff I lost.

Small Decision.

It'll be a short post for today, as I'm really really busy, but I miss "spilling out" my feelings to my lil blog.

So, I've made a decision, is to go for the little surgery. I'll confirm with Mr. Doctor on the day after Christmas. And most probably get the surgery done asap. =/ I know it's a tiny surgery, but.. I'm still scared. I'm afraid of the process of being pushed into the surgery room and the process of inhaling the unknown gas into my beautiful, uninfected lungs. I'm scared. :(

Anyway, I can't think of too much about the surgery now as I should be busy on rushing my assignments now. Two assignments and one presentation down within one day, and two more midterms and two more assignments to be settle by this week. Endless workload. God, please add one more day in a week!! 7 days a week is really isn't enough for me.

Haha, I know I know. So someone would say that "Since so busy and not enough time, why you still can blog?" So, I think I should stop now, before I blab for too long. =P

Adios!

P.S.: "Hopefullly" I can settle my literature review by today.

And whole advanced topic assignment and prezi by tomorrow.

*pray*

(Boleh accept that look? haha!)