Pathetic

People these days, 24/7 are on the phone. No matter it's gathering within family, friends or lover, they're more concentrate on the communication device, compared to a real people. So, the invention of these devices, good or bad for us?
People used these devices to connect to people all around, or, perhaps, to grab more attention. The attention they grabbed online, is the attention of a "social networking" friend, or a true friend?
It's heartbreaking to see it during a family or friend gathering, some people are too concentrate into their so-called "device that connect everybody", and ignores the real care from real human.
"oh, let's check in first", some people said when having a gathering. Is it so important to let your "internet-friends" know where are you and what you're doing? Or update statuses just to gain "like" from friends? I wonder they even can be consider as friends. I bet more than half of your friend list in facebook was just some strangers.

I admit that i'm somehow that person that i've mentioned above. I'll shall change this bad habit. =) And I will succeed.
Gahhh. ignore me for being like a old lady talking this. Just allow me to be an aunty for just one post. =)

P.S.: It's last day of 2011 tomorrow!!
How you spend your new year eve countdown??
I can't celebrate as usual this year. =(
I miss spending time with them during countdowns like the past.
I miss you.
I miss her.
I miss him.
I miss them.
*sigh*

Thank you!!!

Thanks ♥  

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CHRiSTMaS EvE.

Hmmmm.. It's CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!
Can you smell the sense of Christmas is approaching??
Can you smell it????
Do your place snow now?
I swear, in one Christmas of my life, I'll go some place where real snow falls.
*finger-crossed*
I've always have this little fantasy about Christmas.
I'm 20, but i still believe in the existence of Santa, elf, faries, etc.
Too fairy tale huh?
I just wish that someone there to grant my wishes;
someone there to help me through some bad times.
I've always looked forward for Christmas,
but ends up celebrating alone or with the tv.
==
at least, this year,
i have a little different celebration.
=)
Tomorrow. Christmas.

P.S.: This might be the last Christmas all of us have,
(if you believe in 2012)
appreciate it.
Have a merry merry Christmas in 2011!!

SORRY

It's only been 2 weeks i didn't update my little bloggie, but it felt like almost a month without touching it. Urgh, the urge to blog comes flush through me every single day when i see or come across with something special.

There's something I would like to tell to this person here, eventhough I'm not very sure that she's gonna see this or not. XX, I'm SORRY. I don't know what to say besides sorry. I can't figure out any good way to repay you since you rejected my idea of returning the same thing to you. Guilty, was all i can say, when i looked at you. I know, even you said it's ok, you'll forgive me, but my heart just won't let me pass this way. Can you just let me know, what kind of repay, you would like to expect from me? at least, i can do something for you. It looked like we're fine now, but.. I can't just let things go. You guys know that i used to think-too-much about everything. I just can't, like, hey i'm sorry, that's all and go act like nothing happened. I really can't. I'm sorry. Please, at least tell us how or what you want? even as a christmas gift?

If any of you was wondering what serious thing i did to this friend, i lost her mp3. :(

P.S.: Everyone is having mid-term now.
So,
ALL THE BEST ya.
=)

不知道

有些事情，“不知道” 比 “知道” 更好受。

I just don't know why mind about it.
Please, my "think-too-much" attitude,
please stay away from me!!

Hmmm....

How can I tell you??
How to start?

You're prettiest when you're HAPPY :)

It's over now. Everything is over.

Seems like an emo post again?? Hmmm, NO. This time, I'm glad that it's over. :)
Means that i really moved on but not just talking crap about it.
It's different compared to the past.
And I'm happy about it. =D
Confused?
Nevermind. Just let's say that I've grown up,
and able to think wiser now.
Teehee!! :)

HAPPY!!!!

P.S.: Donated blood today.
Arghh,
I don't know donating blood would cause muscle cramps.

You.

If you notice, I've been trying hard to avoid what I've been afraid of.

Give me some time, and I'll overcome that.

And by that time, I'll give you a perfect answer. :)

P.S.: I don't know what you think, but,
I'm proud of myself already.
:)

HER

Can't believe I am crying because of your one sentence. Please don't push me away when i need you. You've always been my best sister, and you always will be. PLEASE, don't hurt me with the same sentence anymore.

P.S.: I care you more than anyone else.

Life like UNO cards

The conversation about UNO happened today between me and my friends.

How good when you can reverse the time to happy moment by showing a "reverse" card.

How good when you can skip the time of sadness and nervousness by showing a "skip" card.

How good when you can change your lifestyle easily by showing a "colour card".

Hmm.. How good is it??

Ms. Anonymous told me that it wouldn't be life anymore if we can play around with life.

It's true though.

It may be no more fun and exciting part of life anymore.

BUT, sometimes, i do hope it can come true.

P.S.: Having presentation tomorrow.

All the best groupmatess!!

*finger-crossed*

Three Eight Gang

We've met each other for only months.

But sometimes it felt like you guys really understand me. :)

And especially with the girls, we often say the same thing at the same time,

without planning. :D *i love that*

Why we chose this name as our group name???

Because all of us are crazy enough, i guess. :)

To each and everyone fo them,

I'm really really glad that i met you guys here in MMU,

and i can be part of the memories of your college life.

Hmmm, i don't know what you guys felt about me, but,

i really like all of you though.

All of you.

:)

I know i've been saying this kind of words to not only a gang of friends,

but,

I really appreciate all of you.

All those memories with different gang of friends,

is IRREPLACEABLE.

No one can substitute each and everyone of you.

Even we can't meet up as much as what we did now,

I believe that for some moment,

you guys will spare some time thinking about the past,

and thinking about me. :)

It's enough for me.

A little message of you guys missing me,

made my day bright.

(Don't say you guys don't miss me, because I know you will!!)

P.S.: Three Eight Gang,

Hope that our friendship will remains the same or even better

in this three years time.

And won't last only three years,

but for the rest of our life~

(What happen to my post, i don't know how to remove the "underline". :C )

Skyscrapper

You can take everything i have

You can break everything i am

Like i'm made of glass

Like i'm made of paper

GO ON AND TRY TO TEAR ME DOWN

I WILL BE RISING FROM THE GROUND

LIKE A SKYSCRAPPER

-Demi Levato

Random

I've been telling everyone that i'm happy about my life right now; i'm satisfied with everything around me right now, but, do i really feel this way? Maybe i got wrong about myself too. Maybe i don't even understand myself anymore. Maybe i've been thinking too much again.

They know i'm not happy lately, but, I'll be fine later. Everything will be ok soon.

P.S.: Trying my best to smile.

I'm sorry!!

To ___ :

I've been thinking alot about you lately, after you told me about "him" having a girlfriend already. All i did was convincing you to forget him, to get over him. But as a best sis of yours, i never stand in your point of view to view things happened to you. Well, i felt so guilty for not doing the right thing and maybe, hurt you even more! I'm sorry!! Hmmm, i know you hardly view my blog but, there's thing i wanted to tell you. Actually i'm really proud of you, you know? If i'm you, i'm might not have the same courage as you to face it. So, for now, you've done a great job!! :) I know you need some time to get over this but, i'm sure you can do it!!! :) You're my best friend since like, 10 years ago, so, I really don't wanna see you hurting yourself so much! I really care about you though. I'm sorry for being mad at you for crying and thinking about that person that didn't think about you so much. I'm sorry about the past post of scolding you. Love you always.

P.S.: Is every guy the same?

Please,

don't make promises when you're happy.

Emo?

Friends have been saying my blog is full of emo post. Well, i really didn't notice about it before they told me. So, I'm gonna write something to "cheer" my blog and readers up!!! :)

Well, before that, about my previous emo post. To them, I'm sorry for making you guys disappointed. I won't feel that way anymore. I know you guys is just joking. And eventho you're not, i know you say that because you're close to me, you want me to change for good. I'm sorry for everything. Friends? :)

OK, back to the "happy" mood. hmm, i don't really know what to write in a happy tone. LOL. *awkwardness in the air...*

Hmmm!! i thought of one funny thing that happened this morning. During breakfast, my mum asked me whether i have a boyfriend or not. And of course, i told her i don't. But, she just don't believe in what i said, she said i sure go meet bf in campus everyday, or not how come i go library every single day. and i was like... O__O|| hello..? i'm having finals this week. LOL. so she continued happily and ask me to bring "him" back to see her. which him i'm suppose to bring to her? MR. library, perhaps. HAHA! What a cute mum i have. haha. :)

Hmmm. What to talk about. Well, i'm happy recently. Satisfied. Main reason? Well, there's no reason for me to be sad over anything, i guess. And yeahh, I'd got over about something. Something that i wanted to forget for long time. I guess, I've forget about it already. Yeah, congrates to me. :)

So, is this consider as a happy post? I don't think so. Haha, i'll try posting more happy post instead of emo one next time =)

P.S.: All the best to everyone i know that having finals.

Good luck.

To myself too.

=)

Sorry

Sorry.

I just hope to have someone to talk to.

I just hope to have someone to tell me everything's alright.

Besides sorry, its still a sorry. :(

P.S.: Sometimes, I'm just tired of pretending i'm fine.

Sorry for being emo these days.

Useless

Now i know, in their view, i'm that useless. I knew they were joking, but it's kinda hurt my feeling when they say that. Imagine that you've been putting some affords in something, and everything is blown out because of one single sentence, one single joke. "aiya, she can't do it one laaa. " or "are you sure you're doing it? i bet you just stand there while other people did it for you." To them, i'm sorry if i didn't tell the truth in front of you.

P.S.: it's part of my fault that people say that to me, i know.

But, can't i improve?

I SMURF you

Watched THE SMURF this morning with the girls.


It's a so-so movie for me, but ya, funny. :)

Well, if you're following my blog, you'll know that my grandmother moved out to penang few months ago. It's been weeks I've complain to my mum about the cancellation of our penang trip. The main purpose of that trip is to celebrate my grandmother's birthday. But due to RAYA season, and the families were afraid of that stupid TRAFFIC JAM, they canceled the trip. I was like, so damn disappointed the moment my mum told me that we're not going to visit grandmother this year. I miss her so much, the one who spend nights sleeping beside me; the one who i often complain that her snore is too loud and yet i miss her snore during the nights; the one who nags me alot about almost everything i do; the one i love.
Well, past few days, grandma called back and talked to each and everyone of us. While i was talking with her, brother was waiting impatiently beside me, wanted to talk to her and hear her voice. Everyone miss her so much. She told me she gone fatter as penang has many delicious food. Well, I'm gonna ask my cousin sister to take a photo of her and tag me in facebook. xD i told her i wanna see how fat she grew. Haha. :D After i passed that phone call to my brother, there's an urge for me to cry; there's an urge for me take my money and escape to Penang; there's an urge for me to see her immediately. My ex-classmate, the SN10Rians, told me that they're going to Penang as a class trip for this year. The first thing come into my mind was, to meet grandma one of the day. So, for now, all i hope is that i can go to this coming trip, not only just to meet and have fun with the class, but also meet my sweetheart grandma.

Last but not least, i smurfing love you, grandma!!

P.S.: I knew something and i'm happy with it
:)

I'm done

"I'm done waiting, if u want me in your life, tell me."

Hmmm.. I used to say that, but now, I'm not gonna say that anymore. I would like to rephrase that sentence to:

"I'm done waiting, if u want me in your life, i won't be there anymore."

I'm done waiting, waiting and waiting for no reason like a stupid person. It's time for me to MOVE ON and get a new life. You, don't influence my life anymore!!

:)

P.S.: I'm happy with my life now and can't wait to start a new life. :)

Hopefully it's a new beginning of my life of this coming semester.

I'M GONNA MOVE ON.

Birthday assignment

Hmm.. weird title huh?? It's not an assignment given by lecturer in university but assignment given by those celebrating their birthday. It's us, the friend's job to surprise the one celebrating birthday. And i guess, this time the two lecturers, MR. CKY and MR. HWK will grade us almost full marks, because we really put on alot effort on it. HAHA :)

Khai Yien's cake.

The cake for KY. Din't capture the pic of Ho's cake, sorry!!

There's too much to talk about the plan of the celebration, and i'm lazy to elaborate everything over here. I guess, I'll just keep this in my mind as one of my happy memory in MMU. :)

P.S.: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to both of you.

And Happy holiday to the rest of my friends.

Finally got some personal time to meet up with my friends and cousins. :)

Bad news

Heard a bad news this morning.

To this person, rest in peace.

<3

Fail

The moment you give up, is the moment you fail.

If you fail, you have to try, try and TRY AGAIN until you reach the top.

If you stop trying, you can't go further.

Nick Vujicic can make it, why can't you???

P.S.: To myself, never give up. :)

Stay happy.

Sick

I LOST MY PURSE AGAIN.

Others learn from mistake, and me, keep on repeating the same mistake over and over again.

What the hell.

Am i really that careless??

I'm really sick of my behaviour now.

Hate it.

Can i have someone by my side and remind me all the time about everything??

Or just someone to slap me whenever i'm gonna repeat the same mistake all over again?

Just, someone, slap me. As hard as possible.

I went out with them today. I smiled and acted so happily in front of them. In fact, I'm really sad today. I'm really getting bored of me, doing the same mistake. Worrying the same thing, over and over again. I'm sorry, if i showed faces on you guys at the end of the day. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm just so frustrated and mad about myself. How could i lost my purse once again, in the same place??!

I really wanted to change. I don't wanna be this careless and blur anymore. I know i said this many times, but, this time, I really mean it. I don't wanna be like this anymore. Felt so useless. Hate myself.

P.S: Slap me, and you'll be rewarded.

坚强

我以为我一直以来都很坚强了。
我以为我能把不开心的都忘了。
我以为，只要笑，什么不开心的都能忘了。
我以为。

为什么？？
:'(

P.S.: Don't worry about me.
Will be as happy as usual tomorrow.
:)
Just let me emo for one single day.

Woohoooo~!

It'll be our last paper tomorrow for this mid-term.

ALLTHE BEST, EVERYONE!!!

Especially, to those who are close to me..)

After this paper, let's party with all the energy we got!!! :D

P.S.: To a friend that birthday tomorrow,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :)

Precious memories

Close my eyes, i saw myself waking up in my B204 room. First thing i do after i prepare my stuff, i went B201. I saw Perline, watching drama on her desk; Y-mun, sleeping on Perline's bed; Seryn, hugging her big pillow talking to Perline. I went in, chat with those awake. We planned to lunch with the guys in TBR. At 1pm, Daniel text us and told us the guys downstairs block B already. We went to meet them downstairs few minutes later. Guys grumbling about the girls being late, as usual. We walked out the long way from the hostel to TBR. We chit-chat all the way and fooling around with everyone. On the way to TBR, Y-mun jumped, when she saw cat; Josephine jumped, when she saw rat; I jumped, when i saw cockroaches. Reach TBR, i ordered the dried pan mee. Desmond said i eat the same thing over and over again. In my mind, i was recalling when Desmond ate the pan mee and get "cirit-birit" for few days, and Daniel has to take care of him, while Y-mun cooked a "over-cooked porridege". After lunch, we went Orange to online for 3 hours. In the CC, the guys was shouting-out-loud while playing games. *Vulgar words in the air* After online, went pool for an hour. Went back hostel to rest for few hours. Dinner time. PKW fetched all of us to Wangsa Maju. We ate the mixed rice that opened recently. After dinner, went Jusco to get some daily products. After shopping in Jusco, we went back. We continue chitchatting in the middle of the road below block B. laugh so loud that even the third floor heard us. 3am, everyone leaves to bed.

It's my daily routine in TARC for one and a half year. It might be boring, as we repeat the routine over and over again, but it will be one of my MOST PRECIOUS MEMORY in my life. With them, i won't expect more. Because they understand me.

Because we're living together. Because we're one big family from different states. I miss them. Seriously. I'll do everything, to reverse the time back to one year before, and let me record down every single bit of detail of them.

It is more than half a year past, whenever i saw their picture, their updates in facebook, it makes me miss them so so much. I wish to see them all now. :)

The guys.

The girls.

Us.

The big FAMILY.

P.S.: Hope all of you guys can see this post. Miss ya. :)

What happened?

can someone tell me WHAT THE HELL HAPPENING NOW???!What's happening in this family???!!

I'm desperate to know why mum acts this way.

What's wrong with her??

Why, i thought she would be waiting for me, and when i'm downstairs, she's already gone?

Why?

What happen to mum and dad?

Really hate this feeling.

STOP FIGHTING AND ARGUING.

It's hurt.

I'm sad.

Helpless.

P.S.: and this is why, i felt like moving out the house.

This is why, i don't feel like staying home for long period.

PLEASE, let everything back to normal. SOON.

Miss

The word miss, consist of two meanings. It's either you miss this person, or u missed this person. You are currently thinking of someone; missing this person.

That person past by your life; missed this person.

P.S.: i miss my grandmother.

I wonder how she is now in Penang.

Really disappointed

when my mum told me that the trip to Penang is cancelled.

When can i meet her??

Random

[This is an ads i saw from CIMB this morning which i think that it's quite meaningful, to me.]

I wish to be a dancer and a marine biologist.
I hope to have a place where people and dolphin can swim, dance, and connect freely.
I wish for a place where the ocean is alive and breathing.
From oil slicks and pollution.
Where we are not robbed of our future.
Where these is hope.
For a better ASEAN.

Hmmm. i like the thrid line about the place where ocean is breathing and alive. :)

OK, that's all for today now. I really got to rush my financial accounting studies.

P.S.: All the best to everyone i know. Especially to those in this house. :D

Friend

It's good to have someone to talk to when you're down.

It's good to have someone to cheer you up when you're sad.

Eventhough they didn't really cheer you up, but the effort you see they put to cheer you up, warms your heart so much.

Thx, mr. :) i appreciate it.

P.S: I'm not mad for you blaming me. Please do find me when you finish angrying. :)

习惯 喜欢

因喜欢而思念 还是因习惯而思念？

喜欢，还是习惯？

不重要了。

Hectic Week

Yeah, like the title said, I've been through a really hectic and busy week recently. Assignments, tutorial homeworksss, and also, examss. Not forgetting that i have a dozens of quizes awaiting for me too! Too much school work, lining up to date me. HAHA. I know laa, i'm so wanted, but can't they just leave me alone, just for a moment? :'( Tired, is all i can say now. How much i hope to have 2 days off, 1 one for me to sleep throughout the whole day. And the next, is let me meet THEM, for one day. :) I miss them. *sigh* I've been telling my friends here in MMU about them. How good and how important are they to me. I guess, people over here started getting bored of me talking about them all the time! Because, i really miss them. :( Hope to see them soon too, right after my test.

P.S: Hostel gang, IMY!!!!!!

First Impression

Read on the newspaper past few days about the newly invented glasses that can show the first impression of you on others. It's something like the traffic light: When red light flashes, means the person u met has a bad impression on you; When orange light flashes, means the person has no special feeling on you; And when green light flashes, means that person has a good impression on you. What is the first impression i gave you? yeah, i'm quite sure that someone will say BLUR (as usual) Hmm.. First impression is actually quite important as it starts a friendship among peoples. If you had a really bad impression on this person, i guess, you won't want to be friend with this person. Although the first is important, but the "after-started-as-friend-service" is much much more important. The first impression is basically how people judge you, from your outside: the way you look, the way you talk, the way you eat, etc. After that, what's important is YOUR ATTITUDE. Your attitude determines the length of your friendship between you and that person.

Someone asked me what's my first impression on him lately. Well, whatever my answer is, it's certainly changed from the moment i met him til now. :) And to the rest of the gang too.

So, dear reader, what's your first impression about my blog? about me? boring? fun?? or??? :D

P.S.: Cai cai yen just came back from Russia, a big WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA from here!! Love ya.

Besides, midterm is approaching soon. ALL THE BEST to everyone and me. :) Hope to get good grades for all. *cross my fingers*

Blood Donation #1

Donated blood for the very first time today. Well, at first, i felt a little nervous and excited about this blood donation event. I went there early in this morning, with Vynie and Khai Yien. (Too bad Vynie can't donate :[ ) Anyway, i had a real good experience about it. If i said that i don't experience any pain, well, it's definitely a LIE. It DO hurts, but only for a second. By thinking this way: By feeling the pain for a second, you're able to save a person life!! So, why not do it? In addition, donating blood is good for your health too, can generate your new blood. :) Well, the minimum weight you must have in order to donate blood is 45kg. LUCKILY i passed it, I'm 46kg now. :) [i thought i was 50kg or more since i ate alot recently. in fact, i slimmed down ^^] cheeeaa, i'm just showing off here about my "slimmed down" news. HAHAHA. *ignore me* Btw, i even got a cert for donating blood. =_=

this is my precious blood that flowed out from my body. :)

P.S.: A simple charity makes your day bright. :D

Everything

Don't make someone your everything.

Because once they left, you got nothing.

Maybe i treat things too seriously.

Maybe i'm the only one who cares.

Maybe.

Our story

You and me,

We had a same story,

We had a same goal.

But now,

I meant nothing to you,

Our story won't be the same anymore.

We headed to different stories,

You have your own story,

And i have mine.

And our story, won't come across with each other anymore.

Clumsiness

Due to my clumsiness (AGAIN), i lose my purse. I was so so so sooooo worried the day before as my IC, ID, Bank card and more than 100 bucks was in the purse. Thank god, i found my purse. Someone from TOURISM CLUB found it and passed it to me. :) Though the money were gone, my important stuff like cards are still here with me. :) Yeah, i won't complain about losing money now. Have to be grateful that i found my cards and not losing everything. :D *positive thinker, fuuuuyooohhh*

Btw, i went Ipoh with the tourism club's committee last weekend. :D will update the post about it soon. With pictureeeee! :) So, stay tune.

Invaded

MY BLOG HAS BEEN INVADED BY ALIENS!!!!!

hahaha, just kidding about the front part. But my blog is really bring spied by particular person. This special person whom i talking about is my precious mum. It's not like i'm keeping some secret from her or what. But, i need privacy, ok? so, I'm gonna change my blog address soon, in order to keep the "aliens" away from me. Sorry for the change of address frequently. :(

PS: Going for interview for DJ in my uni this wed.

Don't feel like taking the job tho.

Just attend the interview to teman my friend. :)

All the best to her la, Yvonne Kiew!!

Memories

Memories fade, but the feeling won't.

IMY.

Gorgeous

I met someone so so so so gorgeous today. hmmm, someone with an unforgettable look !!! Hope to bump into this person soon again. :) *drooling*

DM Deeban greeted me today. ^^ yeah, and i'm very excited. Why? because on the same day, before that, i thought : "hmmm.. its been few days since i last met DM Deeban. Since he's also from FOM, i wonder he got attend class or not?" , or at least something like that. Just now, while i was talking to my mum on the phone, someone came beside me and waved to me. I was like, omg, DM Deeban!! hahaha. well, i'm quite happy lahh, cz he recognized me among 850 over freshies. :D

OK, let me tell you guys something HUGE!!!

*drum rolls..........*

Anthony Neely is coming to my campus this month !!!!!! And the ticket of entrance was just RM8!! unbelievable? believe it. (LOL, copied from Believe It Or Not Slogan.) And what my cousin sis, kahyi said, whether or not i know the guy, i'll go. hahaha. yeah, since i like anthony's song, for sure i'll go. and tomorrow i'm going to get those tickets. eeeee, so excited eventhough there're hours til tomorrow!! :)

So, i shall end my post for today with ANTHONY NEELY's song!!! my favourite song of him!!!

P.S.: Going out with Mun, Daniel and Surprise tomorrow for Kungfu Panda 2, 3D!!

Miss them so much, hope to see them soon!

M to the M to the M.M.U.

I just finished my 6-days orientation in MMU today. Even stayed there for 5 days. It's been a busy week for me over there. Every day gather at some place at 7am, means waking up at 6am (which is a lil' hard for some pig like me). And most of the activities ends at 12am. Well, let me tell you everything about it here, bloggie. =)

Day one:

which is on sunday, 9am, 29/5/2011, was the registeration day. After registering and getting the hostel keys, i started my stay over there. I first met Vynie, which was my roommate, and soon-turned-out to be my groupmate too. So at around 1.45 pm, we gathering around the hall for some programme briefing and rehearsal. And here, we knew about the OCs and DMs. Well, OC stands for Orientation Committee and DM stands for Discipline Master. Ha, yeah,

discipline master. Dying hair is not allowed, must tie hair, must be formal or semi-formal, can't be late for even one minute, blablablah. yeah, at first i was like, O.o, shit lah you, this is uni not secondary school! So, for the whole day after that, we're in the grand hall for rehearsal for the next day, which is the opening ceremony. Everything ends at around 11.45pm, if i'm not mistaken.

Day two:

We gather at the carpark at 7 am !!!!! yeah, means i'd slept for like, 5hours? yeah, at first everyone kept on complaining about the "lack of sleep" problem, until OC Danny, which is our MC for the whole week told us that most of the OCs slept at 4 or 5am, and they didn't complain and blablablah.. yeah. so, most of us just stop complaining. :) so, we had a grand openning ceremony that day, by having a LIVE CONFERENCE with MMU melaka. is was very fun while doing the video conference, because, both melaka and cyberja

ya was competing with each other. we shouted in front of the video cam, we danced, sang, cheered, and done alot funny stuff. :) So, after the opening ceremony, we had a ice breaking ceremony. Well, we learnt alot of dance. and also cheer~! and played alot games. and punishment. haha, such as dance on stage, sing on stage, act on stage, etc. Yeah, and on this day, we had been punished by the DM. Reason? Because some of the guys were late for few minutes. And everyone is punished together. All of us, stood under hot sun and sang "permata dunia". More accurately, we shouted the song of "Permata Dunia", which is the song to symbolize MMU. Its a special song though. I cant get rid the song rhythm off my mind since then, even until now! Well, back to the punishment, it was my worst punishment i've ever had i my life! i felt so blank that time, maybe its because of the weather, i felt like going to faint. Well, after repeating for aloooot of times of the song, we're allowed to go in the hall. And yeah, this e

nd the story of the day.

Day three:

We've been separated into 18 groups. each group got has around 30+ freshies i think. and yeah, fortunately i'm in GROUP 11!!! why i'm so happy about being in group 11? Urm, part of it is because of the mobile OC, OC Kash and OC nurul. :) and part of it is because i met alot new great friends ! not to mention that my roommate, Vynie, turned up to be one of my groupmate too! :) So, we had tons and tons of briefing that day, about security, finance, etc. So, after that, we had our campus tour and activities during evening. Honestly, TARC's Human monopoly was MUCH MORE FUN!! :) Not that MMU activity of that day not fun la, just, TARC so more than fun. SORRY to say that though. =( And after that, we've b

een told that we have to create a musical dance that themed on "flashback" with Bee Gees's Staying Alive. And the day after is the day we perform! O.o So after practicing and stuff, we ended our practice at 12.30am i think. Phheeeeww, what a tired day it was that day!!! Not to mention, it was my birthday that day. And yeah, just spend my birthday there, with tiredness and practice and also, BRIEFINGS.

Day four:

Like the day before, we had briefingsssss this day too! Then we had our own little time to make last practice until the dance begins. So, yeah, at around 9pm, all of us gathered in front of the hall and then, the event started. So, Group 11 was the second group to perform. and guess what, i don't even know what we're doing on stage. It was so so sooooooo embarassing. Maybe due to lack of practice, when its time to to do, none of us remember and just stunted at the middle of the stage! i was like. O.o shit shit SHIT!!! haha. So, ignore our perfo

rmance, overall, the night was a fab!!!! :) we enjoyed alot! And it felt like we're in the club and everyone is dancing and shouting. haha !! And guess what, the DM that all of us afraid of, turns out to be dancing and playing around with us! And i guess, most of the freshie there got high because of the DMs!!!! haha, because they was acting so funny and it was so different from the usual them. I still remember DM Taseen for his Roti Canai :) That day, we took alot of pics with the OCs and other freshies too! it's a really happy happy day for me. :)

Day five:

As usual, we gathered at the carpark at 7am sharp. But this day, DM Caryn, which is the DM handling the girls smiled at us! it like a miracle for some of us, cz we never see her smile! haha. Yeah, and in relax and happy mood, after breakfast, everyone moved towards the hall. No more punishment on this day, as we all have seen all the true colours of the DMs. So, all the DMs was playing and fooling around. :) it was a happy moment! So, as usual, after some briefing, we're allowed to go to our own mobile OC for the last gathering, because i

t was the last day of the orientation. OC Kash told us that: "Every end of a story is the beginning of the other story." And he gave us some advice about studying in MMU. Well, felt like crying when he advising us. And i think i saw there's tears in his eyes too! Since, we have not enough time, all of the freshie, including OCs didn't take our dinner, and straight continue to our next and last event of the orientation. Well, *sigh*, they kinda blindfolded us once again. We went in group-by-group, and group 11 was the first to go in. So, we're all in the first row. Since we're all blindfolded, we can't see anything in the hall. Once we open our eyes, the hall was dark. But lighted with a couple of candles, it made a romantic feel in the hall! and OC Una was singing in front of the hall. I never noticed it was her singing until i was "unfold". Wow, i thought they're playing of radio at the beginning! So, i fell in love with her voice! haha. :D

And after everyone was in the hall, all the OCs sat on the stage. Talking one-by-one about their feeling about this orientation. I still remember the moment i cried, was the moment one of the OC (i don't know which OC's talking, since i was closing my eyes) said: "There's no more roll call from today onwards. There's no more OC serving you food from today onwards. There's no more punishment. There's no more DM. There's......." yeah, this was when i started crying. Well, it's been n years ago since i last cried this way. :( And yeah, i guess most of the freshies cried too! at least freshies around me were all crying. And especially when OC Danny said "sayang", i heard a lot people crying out loud! I even saw OC Taseen, OC Kash, and most of the female OCs were crying. And yeah, OC CK, when he told us his story, i was, erm, i don't know how to describe what's the feeling, but, i admire you OC CK!!!! you're awesome!!!! :) We sang loads of the song we practiced for the last time. Everyone was hugging each other, sing and d

ance with each other. That moment, is one of the moment i'll never forget in my life! Like what the OCs said, it will be one of the happiest moment in your life at MMU. Awww.. how much i hope to have the recording of the Numa-Numa dance, Chicken dance, Butterfly dance, the cheers, Freshie song, Permata Dunia, etc. So, by this, we ended the closing ceremony. Soon after the ceremony and the cam whores, part of my groupmate went Oldtown near MMU for "dinner" at 10pm. :) Weird, but, seems like none of us feeling hungry nor having gastric! But, yeah, happily, we had our very first dinner together. :) By this, we end the night with a sweet smile and swollen eyes on face! haha!! :D

Day six:

It was the course registeration day. On this day, we had to comp

ete with each other to choose the time, teacher and class you want to be in. Thanks to DM Deeban for helping us. :) So after finishing the course registeration, all of us headed home. And officially ended our 6-days orientation.

So, yeah, wow. it's a loooooooooong looooooooong post this time ! ouch,

my fingers gonna cramp soon!! xD haha !! well, after the words tell the story, let some pics tell you the story too! :)

The hostel. My bed. :)

My Roommate aka Groupmate, Vynie.

Our mobile OC, Kash. FromTehran. :)

[Can't find OC Nurul, so didn't get to take pics with her :( ]

Group picture of DAMN HOT group (11) .

Crazy OC doing crazy stuff.

Letter for OC Kash (and OC Nurul, written behind). :)

Thx for being our OC.

You guys were DAMN HOT!

OC Iffah. I love her the way she talk and walk!

:)

The admired OC CK.

:D

The Cute DM Shah.

:]

With hilarious OC Sina.

Dating? LOL. x)

With cool OC Caryn. :)

The favourite, OC Deeban!!

^^

Pretty malay friend, Ip.

:)

The groupmate aka coursemate, Yvonne.

: )

The dinner at Oldtown.

[From left below: Me, Yvonne, Vynie, Xi Yan, Zyin,Jennie.]

[From right below: Adrian, Engine, Liang Wei, Elmer.]

By this, i end this post here. : )

P.S.: while showering in MMU hostel, thought so much about Perline and Y-mun. While we talk talk talk and splashing water to each other. Miss them!

Love.

If you've been following my blog, you'll know i love my grandmother a.k.a my a-ma. She's 82 this year. if i'm not mistaken. she stay with my family and sleeps in the same room with me since i young. and recently, i found out this "awful-ness" of my family members. A-ma is getting older, and she needs to go to the hospital once every two or three weeks. and every family member keeps on pushing this responsible away. and my mum keeps on mumbling in front of my a-ma. Couldn't she think that this will hurt my a-ma??!! everyone seems like pushing her away, and all my a-ma did was just keeps quite and put everything in her heart. well,by looking at her this way, it hurt my heart. i love her. i want to fetch her to hospital every once in few weeks time. if i have a car. if i don't have class during weekdays. IF. yeah, so after all the conflict, my mum decided to sent my a-ma back to penang. this weekend, when i'm in the hostel in mmu. well, i didn't tell them what i feel. and how much i'm not willing her to go penang. cz, if she goes penang, means i can only see her once in a year or two. but, there're no choice left but sending her back. haihz.

Next:

Past few days, someone asked me whether this person still in my min

d or not, after all this while. I told her, if i didn't see him, i won't think of him. well, to this "her", you know who you are. =) well, after she asked me, i've been thinking whether am i still thinking about this person? am i still missing him? hmm. to be honest, i haven't completely forget about this person yet. yeah, i still miss this person. i tried to forget, i tried. but now, i learnt, i won't force myself to do such thing anymore. i allow myself to think of this person, once in a while. bit by bit, i'll find someone to miss and someone to love. so, befor

e that, let's just keep in this situation. :)

P.S.: Tell them how you feel before it's too late. I love you, all my friends and family.

改变

改变，是为了有更好的未来。

改变，是为了走更长远的路。

改变，是为了有更美好的自己。

改变，难吗？

难。

但，不改变，就永远在原地逗留，无法进步！

曾经，这样告诉我：

其实，改变自己就像重建公路。

如果说公路A经常很塞车，很多人都很讨厌走这条路。

嫌它浪费时间，金钱，跟精神。

如果我们没想办法去解决，它永远都那么塞车。永远都让人想避开它。

但是如果我们想到说，建个天桥，问题或许就能解决啦！

在建设天桥的过程中，公路会比往常更塞车。

但是建完后，塞车的问题就没啦！

这，告诉我们，改变自己是没错，很难、很辛苦。

不过，改变了后，百利无一弊啊！

在我们朋友和贵人也会因此而增加。

这是我在做工时，学到的道理。我觉得对我真的很有用。也帮到我很多事情。

所以。。。它就是我的座右铭。

=）

希望大家也可以明白这个道理。

改变，不一定是坏事！

The road to success is always under construction.

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it's happened.

Trust. What is trust to you? I was a innocent girl that used to trust everyone around me. EVERYONE. Whatever they said, i'd thought its true. I've learnt a lesson now. It's not that people cheated on me or whatsoever. Part of the reason is, i went college, and learnt that not everyone telling the truth all the time. There're "water-blower", liar, etc. But most of the lesson i learnt from my friends. Not that they hurt or cheated on me la, its their story actually. I got few friends that come across with relationships problems. yeah, of course i wont say out their problems here or tell their name. == i'm not that.... yeah, so, i learnt something from them. Dont give out your trust easily. Dont fell in love easily. Dont give in everything of yours easily.

Yeah, and as i said to them. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. No matter how does a person hurt you, don't spend time crying over it. Don't spend time blaming this person. Not worth it. You should thank this person for teaching you a lesson. =) Smile to this person, and you'll be better. Everyone, you're not that weak. It's just a little fall that everyone will goes through in life. If you don't get up, you won't be able to stand on higher place! =)

Haha, felt so happy when i thought about it. =) hope that everyone i know will understand this! and have a happy life ahead. ^^

P.S.: For him that i really cared last time, thank you. =)

Am i the only one who cares?

It seems like i'm the only one who cares. Sometimes. Or maybe most of the time. *sigh* it's like, i'm the only one want to maintain our relationship, our friendship. I'm always trying this hard to put everyone together, but still. Same result. Disappointed. Not to them, to me.

And yeah, family, too. There's this chinese proverb : 家家有本难念的经。 it means that, every family has its own problem. To be with the positive side, my family problems would be more common compared to those who have serious family problems. *sigh* though it's not that serious, i still don't know how to elaborate it in my bloggie. it's just that, sometimes i really hate my family member to gossip about others. T

hey shouldn't have done it in front of the kids. Making those kids felt so ... in front of adults. Gossips. words. Words that hurt people's heart. it's like killing people or hurting people without actually putting your hands on them! hmm... sounds familiar? i think i had a post about gossiping or something like that, right? yeah, so, gossiping is harmful. so, please stop whatever you're doing if you're hurting your friends. I don't wish to come back to this topic in the future.

hmmm.. enough of sad stuff now. Too much sad things make my day blue. so, let's talk about something else to cheer up. erm.... urm... let me think of one. it's not that hard to think of something cheerful!! ......

[10 minutes later...]

[15 minutes later....]

YEAH~!!!! i finlly thought of one. =) it's something that i've been waiting for er... 2 or 3 weeks time, i guess. ^^ that is, i'm going to LANG TENGAH with my family on this coming saturdeiiii~!!!!! Haha, to be more accurate, i'm going there with my mum and dad. Therefore, i'm light a MINI philip (light bulb) on that 4D3N!! haha. it's weird that only 3 of us going. and since we're going in odd number, so, one of us will be a little lonely during the 7-8hours bus trip, cause, we going by bus, so, the one left one have to sit with other people. and the one, would be me i think. or my dad. haha, hopefully there's someone to text me to sleep. =) *wink* well, hope that we'll have a safe to and fro. I'm quite worried since we're taking the midnight bus and after the "delima bus" incident. Talking about Delima, it made me think of the bus accident in Cameron Highlands due to oil spilled. I wonder if any of you still remember. I remember i was in Ipoh with my hostel gang that time. We past by an unknown hospital (i forgot the name actually), and saw the "bod

y" of the bus. Its a double-decker bus, but after accident, the top part was completely gone! leaving the bottom part incomplete. :X scary huh. i believe them, who went to the trip with me, remember this scene huh. TOUCHWOOD!!

!!! oh god, why i have to say this kind of thing to scare myself. == stupid. haha. let's forget the latter part i wrote about. hmm.. it would be a SAFE, happy and JOYFUL trip for us. yes, it is. it sure is. =)

so, i guess this post is coming to an end soon. so, i'll end this post with a picture? =)

night, everyone.

P.S.: i love my family and friends anyway. with all my heart. =)

再见了

不想再想了。

不再抱有任何希望了。

不会再对你奢侈什么了。

反正你也听不到、看不到我在想什么。

再见了，路人甲。

没有你，我会活得比以前更好。♥