Useless

Now i know, in their view, i'm that useless. I knew they were joking, but it's kinda hurt my feeling when they say that. Imagine that you've been putting some affords in something, and everything is blown out because of one single sentence, one single joke. "aiya, she can't do it one laaa. " or "are you sure you're doing it? i bet you just stand there while other people did it for you." To them, i'm sorry if i didn't tell the truth in front of you.

P.S.: it's part of my fault that people say that to me, i know.

But, can't i improve?