Not Another "Joann"

I have a common name. A very common one.
Except that in between my "Jo" and "Ann", there are a space.
But it sounds the same as Joann or Joanne or Joan or ...
Whenever I introduce myself to a new friend, for sure I'll get a reply like this:
"Hey. you're the second/third/fourth Joann I knew"
"Hey, you have the same name as me!!"
"Just look at my phone contact list, there are plenty of Joann in it that I have to edit the location I met the Joann in the name part."
"Wow, you're name is very easy to remember."
And the list go on.

Sometimes, I'm really curious about where I stand in my friends' heart.
You have so much "Joann" friends, but when you heard the name of "Joann", will I be the first one comes into your mind? Or I'm just another "Joann" to you?
I'm curious.

That's why I always have different nicknames with different gangs of close friends.
I don't want to be "Just-Another-Joann" to my close friends.
Since young, I have plenty of nicknames and my friends have been calling me with them since then.
ZhuZhu, Ah Jon, Gold Chicken, Pig, etc. 
I want to be rather special than normal, at least to my friends.
Not  "Just-Another-Joann".
Because I'm special; Everyone's special.
=)

I love this!

You can see how common is my name, 

I googled "Joann" and I got tons of pictures, accessories, etc.

P.S.: Yes, Jo Ann is in my full name. 

Not my English name. 

L.A.N.G.K.A.W.I.

3D2N trip in langkawi,we took around 1000 pictures!! I couldn't imagine how much SD card and camera we should bring during our Taiwan trip few months later. Ha! 

Let the pictures tell the story: 

(Of course I won't upload all pictures here, some of them are too embarrassing to be post in social media) 

Day 1: 

With le BFF. 

Flight delayed for more than 1 hour. :/ 

Upon boarding 

After MH370 case, I'm kinda afraid of taking plane. :/ 

Our room. And my roommates of the trip. 

Thanks to Chad we got super cheap hotel in Berjaya. :) 

the hotel has a very magnificent view. 

With a private beach, pools, 24 hour shuttle bus and a nice comfortable room. 

And FULL OF CAUCASIANS! 

It kinda felt like we're living in western country cz we're like the only Malaysians over there. 

Hah! Eye-fulling trip. 

Island hoping. 

The seawater in Langkawi isn't that clear and clean. I guess that's why we didn't even swim in the sea. 

But me and le BFF went swimming in the "air tawar" place. 

And the legend stated that people will get babies by swimming in the lake. 

So we were making joke that both of us getting pregnant and the lake is full of sperm and etc. 

lol

Don't you just love life in the sea? 

It's so peaceful. 

But in the some part of the trip, 

I kinda felt left out. 

Maybe because all of them were a pair or a group 

or just me wanna be alone. 

So on the second day, when everyone is napping during late noon, 

I got myself prepared and called the shuttle bus to pick me up. 

Yup, I went out alone. :)

 I went spending some quality alone time in the pool and beachside.

 Swimming alone, sitting alone in the bench, talking with some unknown strangers, 

looking at angmohs (haha), etc. 

I love this life! 

I had an "early-training" on my future alone trip to European countries. Haha! 

I'm really looking forward to it. I really enjoy this I guess. 

Maybe during future trips with friends,

 I could ditch them and go for some time like this too! 

It isn't that lonely when you have some alone time traveling. 

It'll train you to be brave. :) 

The poolside. :) 

I love spending the night with the gang lying on the seat and look upon the sky. 

Full of stars.

 Total quiet environment except for the beach sound.

 Just lying on the bench and enjoying the view.

 So stress-free.

 It's my life goal, 

living in the beachside enjoying stress-free life everyday. 

Simple as that! 

While waiting the shuttle. :)

Weeee!! 

We took alooooooot this kind of pictures. 

But I'll just share this. Heeh! Some too funny to be post. 

With the crazy ones.

My very first drunk trip. :) 

Can't even walk in a straight line and yet we camwhore a lot. 

Doesn't remember very clearly what we does that night. 

Just too much stupid crazy pictures, 

not to mention damn ugly.

And this is our fail CheonSongYi post. 

lol 

In the Aquarium. :)

 while the rest of the gang went back to kl. Four of us spent our time here.

 Having fun with animals. And "Mount Kinabalu". 

Lol 

Start this post with a picture with her. 

So end this post with her picture again :) 

Finally! Finish blogging about my trip :)) 

Til the next post. Adíos! 

Stupid dreams

Sometimes you spent so much time convincing yourself that something has happened and past.

And you yourself have started to believe that you're convinced.

But some stupid dream, it reminds you all about the past. 

Yes, stupid dreams. 

I dreamt about you again. 

Dreams. 

Time Flies

Tomorrow will be the last day of my semester break. Then I'll start my final year final semester in MMU. 

Time flies, so damn fast. 

It felt like I just started my semester break and yet tomorrow is the last day of the break. 

:( 

Semester break is never enough. It is never too long. 

So, I got my results on the day of my getaway to Langkawi. Guess what, the moment I've logged in to the system and with my trembling fingers I keyed in my ID and password. Took several deep breathes before I clicked into the "Achievement" page. The result for this semester means a lot to me, because it decides whether I need to return RM48,000 loan or not. So I prayed to the God, to give me a less than 0.02 drop in my CGPA. 

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Miraculously, I didn't drop my CGPA and I increased it!!! I got a very very good result, in my opinion. 'Cause I f*cked up the last paper, I thought I will fail the paper. (I done the last question that costed me 20marks completely wrong) But ended up still getting an A for it, I guess the lecturer marked really loose or I'm really really lucky, ha! The moment I checked my result and made sure that  didn't see wrongly, I shouted and danced and screamed and hugged and smiled and laughed like a mad person in my friend's room. Thank God, so much so much for blessing me with a good result. I'll maintain it, I promise. I'm so so close to RM48,000 now. Just one last semester!! 

Then, with a happy and light heart, I went traveling to Langkawi. =) Next blog post will be the pictures of my trip. :) 

P.S.: Perfect happiness,

perfect friends,

perfect trip!

Had my first drunk moment in Langkawi.

Near-to-drunk experience, to be precise.

It's fun.

:)  

Before It's Too Late

"MH370 is yet to be found." - 32 hours later.

It's been 32 hours and the missing plane is yet to be found. How can a plane just vanished in the air, just like this? Is the people still alive? Where is the plane? Is it really crashed in the sea? Rumours spread, all over the net. We don't even know which is the real news and which is the fake. Countries like the US, Vietnam, China, etc assisted in the mission of locating the plane. Families are devastated. People all around the world were praying, grabbing remote controls, switching channels for news that reported latest news, non-stop refreshing pages to know the current status of the search. And of course, there are some douchebags who make jokes on the incident. (I guess their life is far too boring that leads them to crave for attention)

People comes and goes. You'll never know which goodbye is the last. You'll never know when is your last goodbye. Make everyday counts. Confess to everyone you love: your parents, siblings, friends, lover, even pets, before it's too late. Leave no regrets around.

Let's just pray, for everyone we love, for everyone we met, and for everyone on the plane.

May I be free from danger, 
May I be free from mental suffering, 
May I be free from physical suffering, 
May I be well and happy always. 

May my parents be free from danger, 
May my parents be free from mental suffering, 
May my parents be free from physical suffering, 
May my parents be well and happy always. 

May my brother be free from danger, 
May my brother be free from mental suffering, 
May my brother be free from physical suffering, 
May my brother be well and happy always. 

May my friends be free from danger, 
May my friends be free from mental suffering, 
May my friends be free from physical suffering, 
May my friends be well and happy always. 

May he be free from danger, 
May he be free from mental suffering, 
May he be free from physical suffering, 
May he be well and happy always. 

May everyone I met be free from danger, 
May everyone I met be free from mental suffering, 
May everyone I met be free from physical suffering, 
May everyone I met be well and happy always. 

May everyone on the plane be free from danger, 
May everyone on the plane be free from mental suffering, 
May everyone on the plane be free from physical suffering, 
May everyone on the plane be well and happy always. 

Sadhu! Sadhu! Sadhu! 

P.S.: Like what they said in HongKong drama,

"no news means good news".

Pray for MH370. 

Hope. 

Day with Button

I always wanted a dog at home. For years I've been asking for it and my mum doesn't allow.

Miraculously, this year, my mum allowed me to rear one!

So I brought her home 2 days back. 

My brother and I spent a lot of time in thinking a name for her. 

Simply because we fell in love with her, even before we meet her face-to-face. 

Big thanks to Chadwick for allowing us to adopt his puppy. :)

So, we named her Button. 

We've been so excited for her arrival. And worry at the same time.

For Button being our very first puppy in the family. 

First day was tough. 

To be honest. 

She was so afraid, in the new surrounding. 

Brought her to vet, and saw her trembling all over. 

Felt so heartsick, by just looking at her feeling so afraid. 

Night time was a nightmare. 

She kept waking up every single hour and whine. 

But I'm more than willing to accompany here in her crate.

Til she fell asleep.

I never felt so committed in my life, FYI. 

I love her, I realized.

Eventhough I just spent a day with her.

Looking at her falling asleep, I couldn't resist but take pictures of her.

We even made a handmade bed and toy for her!

But the first night, we faced pee-poo problem. 

Most probably because she's still don't feel safe in the new environment.

I couldn't remember how many websites I gone through, 

just to learn to let it poop. 

I've even joined several Yahoo Group for new owner of puppies. 

Just to learn and try to be a good owner. 

Vividly I remembered, that this morning when the moment she pooped. 

Everyone was so happy for her that she finally pooped. 

They said a puppy will normally poop for 3-4 times per day. 

And yet, Button hasn't poop once yesterday. 

So, we were really happy for her.

She definitely sleep a lot. 

Play for 30min and sleep for an hour or two. 

Like a baby pig. 

Adorable huh?

=)

This was taken the moment she just woke up. 

I think she loves her handmade toy-toy since she'll bite it whenever she sleep. =)

But the ownership of Button with our family, 

only lasted for 2 days. 

I don't know what I could do to avoid her being send home. 

Except crying. 

I already miss her, eventhough she's still at my house.

Soundly asleep. 

I cried. My heart sank. 

I guess, this is the hardest time I've cried after.... 

watching "Love from the Star". (No choice, Imma cry baby)

Why do I have to send her away after only two days?

My family couldn't take it, I guess. 

They're sick. 

Mum's sick. 

I've tried to argue with them. 

To gain the access control of Button. 

But, overheard my mum vomiting in the washroom.

I have no choice but to send her away. 

Maybe mum's sensitive to her. 

I have no choice. 

I'm sorry, Little Button. 

You know I love you. 

Maybe you'll be happier, when you're back to your mum. 

Maybe you'll forget me within half a day, after you're back to your mum. 

I'll miss you. 

Please faster wake up. and let me play with you for the last half day.

We gonna send her back tomorrow morning. 

I'm sorry Lil Button. 

Thanks for letting me try to be a owner. 

P.S.: I'll miss you.

A lot. 

A lot. 

='( 

The Fault In Our Stars, John Green

I've read the book recently.
It kinda taught be a lot of things by reading the book.
In case if you don't know about the book, it's about the life of a girl who had cancer and it will never heal.
It's a love story of the girl with a boy who was a cancer survivor but his cancer return and eats up his life in the end. It's also a love story among friends and family.
In fact, it's a really really great book!

There are a lot of quotes in the book that I really like and I would like to share it here.

Indeed. 

The world won't grant your wish, they will only take them away.

When Hazel Grace said this, it kinda break my heart.

In fact, the book reveals so much truth about life.

Truth that hurt a lot.

“It's a metaphor, 

see: You put the killing thing right between your teeth, 

but you don't give it the power to do its killing.” 

During Amsterdam. 

I love how John Green wrote and described about Amsterdam. 

Thou I never been there, but it felt like I'm there.

Just by reading.

The power of reading. Ha!

"I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. 

I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

You gave me forever within the numbered days,

and I'm grateful."

*Spoiler alert*

This was mentioned by Hazel during Augustus's funeral.

This is the sentence I spent a lot of time reading it.

The sentence that I fell in love with.

I read and re-read for a dozens times, before continuing to the next part of the story.

It was the part when Augustus told Hazel about his return of cancer.

His last word. 

In letter. 

To Van Houten. 

='( 

"Okay" has officially become one of the most romantic words. 

At least for me. 

And other readers.

I guess the words, the story of the book, will be on my mind for quite a long time.

I'm in love. 

P.S.: John Green,

I'm gonna buy all your books and read all of it!

=) 

Okay.

You never know how strong you are, until being strong is the ONLY choice you have.

"You're a very strong lady." 
Someone told me this few days back.

Well, I'm not.
It's just that, sometimes situation force you to be strong.
You have no choice but to be strong.

P.S.: I'm wondering whether is my skin too thick;

or the doctor inject too much of pain-killer. 

I didn't feel any pain on my wound. 

Seriously.

But thank God to that. 

:)