Long-loss dream

Long long time ago (well, its actually few years ago), i had a dream. it all started when i'm form 3. that year, i went pulau redang with my family. and enjoyed snorkelling a lot, and just looking at the corals and fishes in the deep blue sea, i'm satisfied and happy already. =) however, 2 years later, i went there again with my parents, everything are not as beautiful as it used to be. the corals are not as colourful as it used to be. even the fishes too, seems to be like migrated to other places, left very less. i'm really sad that time as the beautiful sea which i used to call it paradise, doesn't exist anymore! so, since then, i had a dream. a little dream that i wished that it would comes true one day later. i dreamt to be a marine biologist, to find out a way to help to cure our "once-beautiful" sea; to find out more about deep sea creatures, like the Colossal squid--largest squid in the world.
But "dream remains dream, it's not reality", that's what my mum said to me. after spm, i actually wanted to pursue my dream of marine biologist. but my mum told me that it's just a dream, i won't be able to cope it. Even when i went to education fair, when i ask about marine biologist, those people will be like.. "why do you wanna be marine biologist? you can't be able to find a good job or even uni that provide this course in malaysia! People in malaysia are selfish enough to think about themselves but not other animals! You should think more about reality" some guy told me in that education fair. and once my mum heard of it, she's just wouldn't let me go towards my dream. and yeah, i had to give up. so, i took a-levels after spm. and now going to undergraduate finance course, which i actually think it's quite lifeless.
Although i can't go pursue my dream, i had this one goal to myself that i MUST achieve it when i'm still alive. i will get a diver's license. after i got that license, i'll dive in the sea all around the world. i might not have that much money to do that, but at least, once in every one or two years time after i got a stable income. *cross my finger*

True Friends #2

A true friend sticks with you through the good times and the bad, A true friend will say what you might not want to hear, but a true friend won't stay mad...

A true friend looks from the inside out and doesn't judge by a glance A true friend will stick by you even when you take a stance...

A true friend loves you for who you are not what you could be... A true friend should be cherished cause' few exist you see...

A true friend is the one you may talk to, share things to, no matter how far apart you are and how long you didn't meet each other..

A friend to love with... A friend to play with... A friend to be with... A friend to stay with...

These are the definitons i found on the net of "true friends". for me, when i need help or any shoulder to cry on, true friend will be there for me. and, no matter how long we didn't meet, there're no any 'awkward-ness' or ' dunno what to talk about' situation came up. =)

However, i realised, i'd wrong about something. For all this while, i thought "they" were my true friends 'cause we used to be so closed together. we do almost everything together, like, walk to class, lunch, study, dinner, supper, cc, kenggai, etc. we used to talked about everything, from the day we bornt, to the day we meet, or even til the day we're far apart. we talked about futures. we used to hang or fool around all the day. but, after only, like, 2 months, we met again. and i don't quite know what to talk about. the "awkward-ness" were there that day. yeah, it's sad to say about this, but i don't know what to talk to you guys. (not all of you guys la, just PART of it) well, all i wanted to say is, i thought you guys we're different. Different, compared to the friends i had before this. I know it's bad to say this, but, the girls, mostly are the exceptional case for this. esp. munchini i guess, cuz i keep on meeting her, so the 'problem' is not there, yet. =)

Hmmm, let's talk about something happy. i went out with the sn10rian the day after i met the hostel gang. well, i'm glad i attended this event!! =) i had alot fun that day and i ate quite DELICIOUS food that night. well, sengju invited us all to leisure mall's vietnam kitchen to have dinner together. Heard from kevin that sengju planned to treat us bcz he got his salary dy. i was like.. O.o how sweet of him, thinking of the class when he got his salary. ^^ thanks, sengju!!! so, right after dinner, we gambled at zhihui's house. i loss 13bucks i think!!!! but still with it, cuz i get to spend time with the sn10rian. to my dearest classmate, i'll try to attend as many events or gathering later on as possible and meet up with you guys. =) this is what i never (i think) tell you guys: Sn10r, i love you guys!!

He's just so cuteeeee!!!

Omg, just finish watching 16 wishes from disney channel, i know its a bit slow to know about this movie cuz it's produced quite long ago. erm, the movie was so-so, but the actor, oh my gosh, was soooooooooo cute....!!!! =) well, his name is jean-luc bilodeau. and he's born in 1990!!! he's really cute and good looking. hahaha, yeah, drooling right now d. lol, i sounds like those 'colour-wolf' that alert about its prey. hahaha. anyway, this is some of his cute picture i found online, just to share the 'cute-ness' of him to all of you!! xD

is he cute?? is he? is he?? is he??? LOL. okay, wow, it's 2am now. i guess i'll call this a great day and go to sleep right now. hopefully can dream about him!!! wahahahaha..... xD

38 Shout-Out!!!

haha, guess what, i just fetch my brother back from school. all by myself!!!! LOL. i know this is 38, but i'm still so happy about it. =)

True Friends

To my dear 38 y-mun:

i saw your blog. and ♥ it. haha. and i guess you'll know what i'm gonna say next! LOL. awww... it was soooooo sweet and my little tears almost flow out when i read it.. T_T yeah, after that day you came over night at my house, i noticed something. me + you, we're like real sister, cause we talked alot and not afraid of doing somethings that make each other mad or not comfortable. and you, like really comfortable in my house, with my mum. ahaha, it made me felt that i really got a sister! Soon after you went back, i went out with my other group of friends. the old 'sunway' friends. and guess what, when i 'ter-hit' their hands or 'ter-step' their leg, i'll apologised to them asap. haha, if with you, O.o i dont think i'll apologise la. and it made me think of the word you said last week. xD you said: "for 'not-that-close' friends, when they ter-hit or ter-touch people's hand, they'll say sorry asap, or not it'll be very awkward. but if for really close friends, we usually ignore it, if we apologise to each other, it will be very awkward pulak!" haha, so true about it. and also the water bottle story we realised last time. LOL. haha.

Speechless

Went out with kailing, zhiling and sooteng.

yeah, we shop alot, eat alot, and talked alot too.

most of our conversation is about THEIR'S bf.

all they talked was your bf how how how, my bf how how how. ==|||

don't they know that there's someone single among them??? (me)

haiz, i was like.. so speechless when they phoned or text their bf all the time.

its not like they havent meet for 1 year or what, but. speechless la.

hmmm... i guess next time when i plan to go out with them, i gotto find my 'single' friend with me too. lol. that's why today i miss my yin dear so much. =)