Growing up.

I'm almost 20 now. the age to start to think and do things in matured way. i'm supposed to think about my future. my life. my work. but, i'm still hanging here, doing nothing. everyone around me started to move towards their dream life, their future. but what am i doing here? nothing. thought about my future alot recently. and guess what, it's only ended up with frustration but not conclusion. should i go for financial maths in utar or other courses in inti taylors or sunway?? i've did some research,but still, i don't know what to decide. hopefully, by this half year, i'll know what to do and where to go. i'm actually really worry about my future now. =(
Oh, and, i attended my relative's wedding dinner yesterday. i always thought of the same thing whenever i attend a wedding function. "will i marry?" i know, it's realy early to think about this matter, but, still, i'm worried. haha, some people would probably think that i think and worry too much here, huh? it's hard to imagine me and a guy holding hands and shouting: "yum seng" with all the family members. haha, it's weird. and yea, blablabla.

i'm happier without you. ♥