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February 22, 2014

我,不想長大。

大家都說:'小時候我們哭著哭著就笑了; 現在我們卻笑著笑著都哭了。'

我不想長大。
我不想像其他朋友那樣那麼期待畢業。
我不想出去黑暗的社會。
我不想面對那麼多壓力。
我不想靠自己。

我想停留在現在這個時段,或回到從前從前。
我想輕輕鬆鬆打打鬧鬧的過日子。
我想依賴著家人朋友。

可是,我們都長大了。
跟朋友們的話題已改變到「你同事怎樣、工作怎樣、什麼時候買屋子」等等的成人話題。
就連從小就一起玩家家樂的小表妹也要考車上大學了。
童年,離我們越來越遠了。

我們長大了。
今年年中,我就畢業了。
成為社會上所謂的'失業人士'了。
找工、應徵、開工、壓力,全都會在今年開始。
我不想。我不敢。

我,不想長大。

I hope Peter Pan really do exist. 
To bring me away from the process of "growing up". 

P.S.: I finally got to blog!! I finally ended all my exams!! 
I'm gonna spam my blog, beware! 


February 12, 2014

I'm Sorry

Stupid surgery clashed with all my activities. My friends and I registered as a group into a CIMB Challenge on March, ngam ngam 2 days after the surgery. Blame me, i didn't check the calendar properly when I told them I'm on. I forgotten this month is February and I thought this month have 31 days (stupid me), so I have around a week time to stay at home and rest. And it turns out to be 2 days after my surgery!! How am I going to run and jog along with other participants??! Well, I'm more worried for my group tho. They was really happy and excited that our group got shortlisted into the competition, like few hours ago. Yen was cheering and getting so excited for it. And now I have to ruin their excitements. Mum said better not to join because the wound will get infected and later got problem blablabla, which is the truth. Gosh, how am i suppose to tell them??! Only few of my friends knew about this surgery, but not them. And now I need to tell all of them about the surgery, as my reason to drawout. wtf. I was this close to the RM5,000 prize. Goodbye. I'm sorry, my teammate. I'm sorry, Fantastic Four.

February 9, 2014

"Impossible Is Not A Word, It's Just A Reason For Someone Not To Try."

I miss blogging.
I need more time. 
Sorry blog, for not updating anything for quite a while. 
I'll be back in action two weeks later. 


Please, give me a good result for this semester. I'll die if my result drop too much. Nahhh, I'm just joking, but I'm serious about giving me a good result. Study hard, pray hard. Finger crossed. 

P.S: I need entertainment.
Desperately.