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Abnormal heartbeats rhythm.
(Dup Dup Dup DupdupdupDUPDUDPUDPDUDPDUPDUDPDUPDUPDUPUPDUPDUPDUP. )
Sweaty palms.
Shaky legs.
Breathe in hard.
Breathe out harder.
And it repeats.
This happens every single time during the moment my exam result is out.
It takes a huge courage even for me to click on the "Achievement" button.
All the hard works and stay up lates, will show in the result,
whether it worth that much effort or not.
Some people out there has started to feel happy and cheering and showing off their results in their facebook status. And some people like me, still have the "O_O" look on.
WHY IS THE RESULT SO BAD?! =(
I know, its way better than my expectations, but still, it dropped semester by semester.
Looking the grade from a beautiful grade to now; a grade that I would just throw it in the bin.
Now, and now its near the border, the border of dropping off.
What happened to me?
I vowed to study hard this semester; I vowed to pull up the grades this semester.
But then stupid study mood just isn't there for me whenever I need to study.
I know, I know, some of you might think that I'm just being stupid for thinking about the slight drop.
"Aiyaaa, you won't drop that much one lahhh" "aiyaaaa, you sure cheat us oneeee"
But i still mind.

And now, I'm writing this feeling, this STUPID DISAPPOINTMENT out in this post, so that in the future semester, when my study mood is gone when I needed it, I can refer back to this post.
Where I can recall back how hurt, how disappointed and how sad I am during this one moment!
AND YES, I'M REALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH WHAT I HAVE NOW!
I'M REALLY MAD AT YOU, ZHU!

*Sigh*
Moments ago, I was still nervous, trembling. Hoping that I got a good result. But.
BUT.
Just felt like hiding in the blanket and cry the whole night.
='(
I know its no point crying matters that have been done, but.
I regretted.

P.S.: A bad start for me doesn't mean the same thing to him.

Hope he'll get a great result. 

=')